is this the start of one?

melodypond · 13-04-2012, 10:05 PM

. I'm 16 years old. I think I'm ugly, especially my face. I know that I'm thin, but I don't feel it. I don't have muscle and I see fat everywhere. Over the last few weeks ive lost some weight. I really want to weigh even less. I constantly think about what I eat and how many calories are in stuff. And I feel gross while I eat. I don't want an eating disorder and I don't believe I'm really that Bad, I mean, I still eat. I also have problems with self harm, though that's unrelated.

I just don't know what to do.

carly011 · 13-04-2012, 10:10 PM

I dont have any answers because i am in the same place as you. I am 19years old, i hate eating. I feel disgusting. I dont think i am that bad either though people tell me i am. I also struggle with self harm, depression and anxiety.

If you ever need to talk, you can talk to me :) I hope things get better. Try to eat more, try to curb it while you can.

melodypond · 13-04-2012, 10:14 PM

Thanks. I'm probably not gonna eat dinner now. Ill try to make myself though. I don't want it to get bad.

carly011 · 13-04-2012, 11:32 PM

You need to eat. Even if you "gross" and "fat" because you need the food. I know i am not one to talk because i hardly eat....Have you ever thought of getting help maybe through therapy? that way you can stop yourself from getting worse

carly011 · 14-04-2012, 01:30 AM

Melodypond: you should visit the virtual teen forum. They are very very supportive over there and i really like it over there. they also have an eating disorder board. Check it out. They also seem to answer more and be supportive of everything. They are very helpful :)

melodypond · 14-04-2012, 01:30 AM

Oh I'm so sorry ill take those out

melodypond · 14-04-2012, 01:33 AM

Thanks Carly I'll have to check those out aswell

tears black as night999 · 14-04-2012, 08:22 AM

then were all in the same boat thats rockinking pretty bad

melodypond · 14-04-2012, 04:45 PM

^ I agree