Can you not go another way?
Could you maybe do a fifteen minture thing, like some people do for SI? Cos if he replies you'll know soon enough, cos you're checking regularly. But checking all the time's just gonna stress you out more, which you don't need.
That's not so weird, not really. Just look after yourself.
A run sounds like a good idea, especially if you need distraction.
There's always f&d too, the arcade etc...
And you can always PM me if you want?
Laura x
Awww *hugs* well done for walking that way, sounds like it was really hard, especially as you saw him too!
You're not stupid.
And I think you're being really brave meeting him too. It's scary but you're handling it well it seems. It'll be ok, meeting him. You'll be ok.
Alright calm down hun.
It's good that she told you what she knows, and she's right, don't be afraid to ask him everything that you want to know. Have you replied to her yet?
You can deal with it Katy, hun you're doing so well at the moment in dealing with this, and we're here to help you through it, ok?
It'll be over soon, but don't give up. It'll go ok.
They may be moving away but they are still there for you. Maybe not face to face but phone, email etc?
You're not alone. Two weeks before the anniversary, and I can't imagine how hard that is but you have us on here, you can always talk to me and your friends on here, we won't let you be alone.
And it's shitty that you've been lied to, that's why you're meeting him, to find out the truth.
You can do it.
It's understandable that you don't want her to be lying, but don't dismiss what he says straight away hun. Give your brain time to process it first, then you've got the information from both sides.
He's not really leaving you hun, he'll still be there for you. It won't be the same but he's not leaving completely.
You're not completely alone hun, remember that. It will be a hard two weeks but try and remember the good things about her and not just how she died. That's so important. She should be here and she was taken so cruelly, but she's in your heart and you know what makes her special. Remember that, especially in the lead up to her first anniversary.
Next week you're meeting him. After that you don't have to see him again if you don't want to, that's up to him. You have to decide what makes more sense in your head, what he says or what your mum says.
Keep fighting hun, you're not giving up without everyone on this thread fighting you on it!
I..I just cant deal with any of this
why did it have to happen now
things were already the worst they have ever been and now this
****ing kick in the teeth.
I hate her, I hate her no I dont I hate them she wouldnt of had to do what she did if they hadnt ruined her life I mean what good is a dancer without any legs I never even got to say bye.
I want to see him again but I am scared mummy wont like it
and I cant make mummy angry again...
*cuddles* thankyou
You're entirely bonkers. But I'll tell you a secret. All the best people are.
Does your mum have to know hun?
You can do this hun. It's a lot to handle but you can handle it.
*cuddles*
Maybe you didn't say goodbye, but I bet you've said it out loud since, and that's enough. I can't imagine how painful it must be, but she'd know, she knew you love her and you will always love her. I don't blame you for hating them, they destroyed so many lives. But they're not destroying yours, you can get through this.
I never even got to say bye.