Just fuck off >.< Don't call me up and then not listen to me. God you really know how to piss me off don't you? Urgh. Whatever, do what you want, you do normally.
You can't lose hope when it's hopeless.
You gotta hope more,
then put your fingers in your ears and go,
"Blah blah blah blah!"
please don't go. I wanted to try and speak to Z...I wanted her to ask me, nicely - not nastily, if things were okay, really. But there's no chance of that with you there. And it'll be the four of you against me. Because you all think there's something wrong, the four of you...I was going to handle three of you, D will just get drunk, C is easy to fob off, and Z is okay. But with H as well :\ I'm not sure I can. Nightmare.
Please leave me alone tomorrow.
I do not want to go to work today. I do not even want to leave the apartment. I don't want to do anything at all. I want to be left alone in this apartment. The only person I want to talk to is the person that doesn't want to talk to me. I don't want to put on a happy face and go to a job I hate, only to see the person who screwed me and used me, nor do I want to talk to Mitch or see him. He was no friend to me, and if he tries talking to me about it today, I will seriously beat his ass.
On another note, if you are the one that upset her and forced her to make a decision that she didn't necessarily want to make, I'm going to be very, very angry at you, and may be giving you a call.
Also....Michael, now you know I'm on anti-depressants. I told you. I feel marginally better now that you know, and I take your discretion in the matter as a good sign. I just wish I could tell you about everything else...hell, maybe you already know.
*Sigh*
Another night, just needing you there, but where are you? I don't even fucking know. I keep letting you do this because i'm just so scared of losing you, and being alone.
Why did you have to do it?
You can't lose hope when it's hopeless.
You gotta hope more,
then put your fingers in your ears and go,
"Blah blah blah blah!"
Why must you ask me for help? Please. . . . realize that you may just need to let go. She may be preparing for that. And then I will be left to pick up your pieces when all I want is to go after her.
I may only seem to be a drunken,
vice-ridden gnome whose friends are just pimps and girls from the brothels.
But I know about art and love,
if only because I long for it with every fiber of my being.
It has just occured to me that you have no pictures of us on your profile.
We were togeather for over a year.
I'm wondering whether I should let this get to me.
Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
fuck you for playing with my head. i trusted you. goodbye.
rhap·so·dy - an ecstatic expression of feeling or enthusiasm. ♫
"Sacrifice is the most you can love someone." ♥
“Love was at best an excuse for stupidity, at worst a destructive, dangerous emotion that drove men to acts of annihilation which defied logic. It was a twisted, insidious sentiment used to justify everything from spoiling a child to destroying entire civilizations.”
I didn't even look your direction while we were in the break room at work. I have to say, it felt kind of good completely ignoring you while you kept looking over at me, especially after you stormed out. It serves you right for what you did to me, you slut.
And Mitch, don't wonder why I didn't say anything to you at all when you commented that I made it back. You know why I didn't. A nod was more than you deserved.
i havent eaten a thing today =( and all i wanna do right now is slash away at my arms... i know i should call you but i dont want to bother you. i dont want to interupt you. i dont want to be a bigger burden than i already am.
You're boring me.
Just come and hit me why don't you?
I'll even give you my bad side.
Anything would be easier to deal with than your blatant ignorance of my existence.
my candle burns at both ends
it will not last the night
but ah my foes
and oh my friends
it gives a lovely light!
i hate myself for the way i treat you, i don't know why i do it or even why you stay with me. i'm so scared you're going to leave me. you deserve so much better than me, i don't know why i just can't open up and say what's bugging me when you ask what's wrong. i guess maybe hald the time i don't know and the other half it's so stupid i don't want to bore you with it. i love you so much and i can't imagine my life without you. but i don't deserve you and i don't wanna drag you down so i may just half to say goodbye.
~Life ain't always beautiful, BUT it's a beautiful Ride~
Why is it when i crave you're advice or help you just brush me off.
You go 'aww that sucks. Sorry hun' Then talk about your problems?
You're meant to be one of my best friends.
My god i'm so sick of people's selfishness.
You're one of the worst!!!!!!!!
Why can't anything be simple.
How can you not notice when i need help.
How can you always put yourselves first?
I'm seriously breaking here guys.
"I'll lean on you and you lean on me and we'll be okay"
