you were so werid
it was like the last 19 months were gone in a flash
i thought we were getting on but you have proved me wrong
yeah i feel like its my fault [cuz thats what my depression does 2 me its fucks with my head til there is nothing left]
ive wated 2 talk 2 you tell you im still not 100% but i know you've got your own worries and you might be leaving us if you are good luck with that seriously i'll miss you though i mean who else is gonna put up with me and my bullshit
ive lost it i really have lost it
its gonna take some time 2 get my confidence back i know
dont worry
x
Don't be someone else's slogan because you are poetry.
You all know im not okay. Your choising to tip toes around it or just ignore it totally. I cant tell yas i feel threatened by year 9s because im in year 11. Thats shameful. Im not scared of them. It reminds me so much of her. It. The monster who wrecked my life. Gave me anixity attacks. Ive got so much worse. I have cuts all at the top of my arms as well as the bottom. I dont think youse know what to say or how to stop me. But can you please do SOMTHING. Because if not then im going and NEVER coming back.
I want to die because of what you do to me.
you dont ever understand how i feel i try to explain
you call me and idiot say im stupid
i dont know what im talking about
it breaks my heart i miss how our family used to be
when we were happy and smiled and i never got angry
i smiled about everything helped everybody
and you cheated on her you fucked it up
now im angry all the time i cry so much
everybody went from loving and caring
to bashing and bringing each other down
i cant do this..i hate you
you ruined my life my happiness my future
i feel so sick of all this
why do you do this to me.
“Never lose faith in yourself,
and never lose hope;
remember, even when this world throws its worst and then turns its back,
there is still always hope.”
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You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the sheets of paper lies my truth
I have to go, I have to go
Your hair was long when we first met
Samson went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
He ate a slice of wonder bread and went right back to bed
And history books forgot about us and the bible didn't mention us
And the bible didn't mention us, not even once
You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the stars came falling on our heads
But they're just old light, they're just old light
Your hair was long when we first met
Samson came to my bed
Told me that my hair was red
Told me I was beautiful and came into my bed
Oh I cut his hair myself one night
A pair of dull scissors in the yellow light
And he told me that I'd done alright
And kissed me 'til the morning light, the morning light
And he kissed me 'til the morning light
Samson went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
Ate a slice of wonderbread and went right back to bed
Oh, we couldn't bring the columns down
Yeah we couldn't destroy a single one
And history books forgot about us
And the bible didn't mention us, not even once
You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first
Thank you for tonight. And thanks for understanding.
Last night I was all ready to run across the centre, get home, and kill myself. If you'd have let me go, I would have. But you didn't. You held me, and told me you wouldn't let me go unless you came with me. I can't believe just how much you mean to me; I...
I love you baby. I'm scared of today, cause today is when you find out. Today is when the line between the truth and the lies gets blurred.
Your not gonna run from me, I hope. I can't get over the feeling that you will. I dont want to hurt you, but my friends are telling me it will hurt you worse if I dont say anything. Its a lie. I know that you probably feel like your getting mixed messages from me, and I'm sorry.
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Dont rush us, your making her feel pressured into doing things that she's not comfortable with yet.
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Fuck, will you just learn to keep your fucking mouth shut sometimes?
It's happened again, I cant believe all that happened to you, was happening to you all week and you didn't tell me, worse I didn't realise, I knew you were quieter than usual, I wondered if something was wrong, I tried to ask you but you wouldn't talk to me. You never do anymore. I feel guilty that you don't talk to me about stuff anymore, any stuff to do with you, I feel even guiltier that I'm being selfish about it, worrying about myself when I should be worrying about you. I cant help wondering what I've done, am I that bad of a friend that you can't trust me to tell me when your mum is very ill in hospital, or when you have just been diagnosed with that condition. Are we not as close as I always thought? That you didn't want to tell me, I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry, I love you.
Fucking grow up and get some independence and some perspective. Life isn't perfect, no matter how much you've had handed to you on a fucking silver platter.
Wake me up before I change again
Remind me the story that I won't get insane
Tell me why it's always the same
Explain me the reason why I'm so much in pain.
I really miss you. And seeing you on webcam like this; seeing you smile when you read what I've said, only makes me miss you more. I wish we were together more. I think I've fallen for you.
