Hi, thanks for your reply. I don't think it's a physical thing, it's more how i feel around food. Over the years i kind of managed to have these 2 separate voices in my head. One is a sensible one that knows i have to eat a certain amount in order not to lose weight and not to be ill. That's the one that makes me eat every day. But there's also the other one that's scared around food and makes me be really picky, pay attention to what i eat and how much, when i eat, what i drink and how much i exercise. Those two are in constant conflict and it just depends on the phase i'm in, which one will have more strenght. So i usually manage to be sensible enough to eat but how much is questionable.
I recently notices i'm kind of going down the route of not eating quite as much as i should, the anxiaty is starting to kick off and i'm not sure how to stop it. I seem unable to incorporate proper eating in a normal life. It's either i'm in a recovery mode and i more or less stop other things or i live life, go out, work and restrict on top of it. It's unsustainable for a long term... i'm stuck...
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