Feel myself slipping
It's been a little while since I escaped that nasty depressed patch, but lately I can feel it creeping back slowly. It might be that I have a lot on at the moment, I've got a re-take to do for my degree and if I fail I have to re-take the whole year, and as many people know that is simply not an option My money is at an all time low despite the amount of hours I do a week (between 45-60, two jobs) and I'm starting to look back and realise i'm in a considerable amount of debt. Home life is sh*t, to say the least, the house is too small for five people and we're always tripping over eachother or bickering, i've got a million and one things on my plate at any time and there's always an argument waiting for me to step thru the door.
It just feels I work so f*cking hard and never have anything to show for it. I know i've only got one more year at uni but it's the hardest one yet and my course has been nothing but nightmarish up to this point. Another problem is I can't imagine everythings going to magically fall into place after graduation, i'm still going to be in debt, getting a job is never easy and until I move out it's a constant struggle not to get involved in arguments and I can never have a f*cking minute to myself. I'm just really pissed off at the moment, this would probably fit better into the rant section but i'm almost done now. Maybe i'm being pessimistic but there hasn't been very much to smile about lately.