Thanks I don't know . I don't want to be in this fat body. I'm drowning but I can't reach out to anyone as my weight is too high . The memories keep coming thick and fast. I have no support until 5Th. How do I make it stop? Xx
Thank you Jodie yes but I have been doing phase 1/stage 1 for a year and I'm still very bad at grounding techniques. I am writing down the memories as the come up. I seem to reach a point in every day where it gets on top of me and the flashbacks come . It's like I get too exhausted from the intrusive images that are more constant than flashbacks they are hard to filter out. I have a CPA on 2nd and I'm hoping they might refer to the trauma and dissociation service so I can do group work or something else alongside the trauma work. Eating disorders have given up I can't blame them I'm never well enough or I'll enough. I just don't know.
I just feel so triggered. I can see him and I want him to stop. I ended up somewhere else I knew I was in my house now but I was where I grew up . I started screaming mum found me on the floor. I am a mess. I don't know what is happening to me ? It's like the world dropped away