Just got out of crisis and lithium
I spent four days in a mental hospital after being basically forced into admission. I was suicidal and self harming. I feel better now, but I'm very edgy.
Anything makes me cry.
For instance, my boyfriend suggested we watch a happy movie, so he put on Totoro, because I had never seen it before. I started crying when the girl went missing.
My psychiatrist wants to put me on Lithium, but I'm hesitant, that just sounds terrifying to me due to its reputation. Also, I'm a sculptor, I work with dangerous tools. I can't be a zombie. I could accidentally hurt myself or others while welding or using power tools or something.
Aside from that I'm a full time college student, I can't afford to have less energy than I do now. My medication cocktail is already pretty intense. I feel like if I have some time to just stabilize I'll be good, or maybe not. But I'm hopeful.
I'm currently on 150 Effexor XR in the morning and 75 mg at night, 400 mg Lamictal once at night, 400 mg Zonegran at night, 10 mg Abilify at night, and 0.25 Clonazpam three times a day.
He didn't really say if he'd reduce my doses of anything else or just add the Lithium. I don't know. I just heard "Lithium" and immediately said "no".
Maybe I should be more open to it?
What have your experiences been?
What were the circumstances and what was your state at the time you were prescribed it?
What were the side effects? Did it help?
I just want to be stable again.