I don't know why i so badly want to. Cutting is not an addiction for me at the moment. I think i just want to see it, because i have not had scars on my arms for so long, and i don't understand why but i don't know...i want to see myself injured on my arms. and it seems EXCITING. i know that makes no logical sense!
I am worried because i have been having these thoughts for a while, and if i do end up doing it i will HATE myself for it because it will restrict what i can wear out and to work, which i am very not used to because i haven't had to worry about that for ages. Most of all work, i am so happy that i can wear short sleves (which is uniform) and not have to worry about hiding marks.
I also worry because when i cut recently i do it deeper than i used to, which means i might get permenant bad scars, which just doesn't seem worth while, and doesn't match where i'm at...well where i think i'm at!
Frizzle i do that sometimes but i suppose that way i still have to hide my arms?
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