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15-12-2013, 10:32 PM
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Paul :)
Join Date: Apr 2010
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Contains ED - 18 months free from self harm :)
Also just over 2 years since i discharged myself from going to the eating disorder clinic (which i had to go to once a week) after being told if i carried on not eating i wouldn't be here much longer...
Went to London today as a treat good experience getting lost in the crowds enjoying life to the max....
I got told if when i discharged myself that if i wouldn't get better without "help" and the reason i wasn't getting better was because i wasn't listening to their "advice".... Being weighed every week and being told how many calories (whatever they are.. no idea) to eat was really "helpful"..
So here i am i did things my way i tried counselling but i stopped that after being told i wasn't "ready to deal with the abuse i suffered".. Again "professionals" don't really know anything.. One thing reading it in a text book another thing look at yourself in the mirror at 2am because you can't sleep due to the flashbacks...
I've done recovery my way the way it felt right the way i wanted too...
I promised myself one thing "Paul don't ever give up" i haven't.. Blips are fine all part of it but giving up for good no i won't/can't ever will....
Everyday is a challenge but taught myself to take things 1 minute at a time don't look too far ahead and remember that i'm doing my best and nothing else matters...
I'm getting there :)
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Can you remember who you were, before the world told you who you should be?
Charles Bukowski
We all wear masks everyone everyday. Sometimes we wear them so much we forget who we really are - Nikita
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20-12-2013, 11:55 PM
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a mirror that reflects it
Join Date: Jun 2009
Location: Upstate New York
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wonderful! :) great work!
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this is my magical medicine cabinet. Left to right they contain: courage, hope, calmness, and strength.
The magical part: They NEVER run out, so borrow some any time you want.
PM me anytime, I love getting messages :)
Katie
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21-12-2013, 12:05 AM
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Join Date: Apr 2013
Location: Nottingham
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Well done :)
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Trust is like a hurricane.
Never give up.
Never say never.
Live life to the fullest.
Keep smiling.
My scars tell the real story.
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22-12-2013, 10:15 PM
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Paul :)
Join Date: Apr 2010
Location: Somewhere far away ...
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Thank you that really means a lot cheers xx
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Can you remember who you were, before the world told you who you should be?
Charles Bukowski
We all wear masks everyone everyday. Sometimes we wear them so much we forget who we really are - Nikita
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23-12-2013, 01:17 AM
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Join Date: Jan 2010
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Well done Paul, this is so good to hear :)
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23-12-2013, 04:52 AM
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Nice job! :)
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23-12-2013, 03:21 PM
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LittleCloud
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That is excellent Paul- I think recovery really is about finding your own path. Thanks for the reminder of that
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So she lights up a candle for hope to be found
Captive and blind by the darkness around
Each wave a promise, a new hope reborn
Sunrise consoles at the break of dawn
Kamelot - A Sailorman's Hymn Lyrics
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23-12-2013, 09:58 PM
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#Azkafam
Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: Bellatrix's Lair.
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You've done incredibly well and should be delighted with yourself :)
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Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
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25-12-2013, 07:19 PM
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Pathologically flamboyant
Join Date: Nov 2010
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Terrific stuff! Well done for coming so far :)
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No other sadness in the world would do
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26-12-2013, 07:50 AM
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Meera :-)
Join Date: Nov 2012
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Excellent Paul. I am so proud of you. Xx
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The only way that we can live is if we grow. The only way we can grow is if we change. The only way we can change is if we learn. The only way we can learn is if we are exposed. And the only way that we are exposed is if we throw ourselves into the open. 
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26-12-2013, 05:22 PM
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Paul :)
Join Date: Apr 2010
Location: Somewhere far away ...
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Thank youuu :)
I was saying to Mum today how annoyed i was because of the fact i still haven't got a job despite i keep applying for as many jobs as i can.. She replied with "look how far you have come in 2 years if you didn't want to get better and get healthier you wouldn't be able to look for work and volunteer twice a week like you do. Also it's not like you are unemployed and doing nothing.. Volunteering and pushing yourself to get better, using the time well"
I guess she has a point and being unemployed i guess isn't the crime of the century... Seem to be coping with Christmas alright which i'm happy with :)
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Can you remember who you were, before the world told you who you should be?
Charles Bukowski
We all wear masks everyone everyday. Sometimes we wear them so much we forget who we really are - Nikita
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