sorry for the disturbance.
I know you guys can't diagnose me or anything but i wanted to know if i have symptoms of a disorder or something.
Well i have mood changes very often, i mean one minute i can be happy and the next sad, but usually the depressed mood lasts longer.
I have thoughts of suicide almost every day.
I get angry at someone over something so small (for example my mom turned off the tv and i was so angry that i wanted to kill her, i wish she could die)but most times i keep it inside because im so afraid of rejection.
I want everyone to like me.
I can't make decisions unless i have other opinions(i mean i always ask my friends or family before i do something)
When i go out, everyone else decides where we will go and i follow, because im too afraid to say my opinion, because i don't want the other people not to like me, or to judge me, i mean i prefer to do something that i don't like than suggest something else.
When i go out with friends usually i don't talk, i just sit there and listen, because im afraid i will say a stupid thing, but if i say something, i must be completely sure that it would be the right thing to say.
Im very anxious
I have lost interest in almost all my activities that i used to like.
I feel like a failure, worthless and that everything is hopeless.
I wish i was dead right now because i think that no one likes me, but the people who say they do, they say it because they don't want to make me feel bad.
sorry for the rant.I know that i won't get any replies because no one knows whats wrong with me, but i wanted to tell someone in case someone has something to say.
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