Contains sexual abuse - need some help

[getting_by]

*Looks around for Jo*

[on edge]

so scared dont feel well
cant take no more

[getting_by]

*Hugs* You wont feel unwell for much longer huni, I promise... things will get better. Just wait and see, your doing soo well with everything.

[on edge]

cant stop shaking,feel sick and dizzy and i really want to run and hide

[BridgesAndBalloons]

When is the doctor coming to see you? You're doing really well, you can do this, you won't always feel this bad x

[getting_by]

Thinking of you hun *Holds Eeyore tight until the Dr goes*

[on edge]

she's gone
i dont feel good right now

[getting_by]

How did it go huni. *looks worried*

[BridgesAndBalloons]

Did she help you at all Jo? x

[on edge]

im left feeling so raw
it was so hard.
she wanted me to go into hospital and i freaked out and had a major panic attack, cant go into hospital.
feel very anxious atm, just want to disappear

[BridgesAndBalloons]

Did she help calm you down after your panic attack? I've been in hospital before, it really isn't that terrible, I valued it as it kept me safe. *sending you safe hugs*

[on edge]

she did calm me down eventually.
ive got a fear of hospitals a lot of bad things have happened to me involving hospitals, its just something i cant do it would make me worse.
*takes safe hugs* thank you.

[BridgesAndBalloons]

It's good she calmed you down. Did your doctor say you could do anything else? Like maybe having a CPN or counselor come and visit you in your home x

[on edge]

for now she has agreed for me to stay at home, with her and some crisis team support, i dont no what the crisis team is though but she said they are good. and she is ringing me tomorrow.
she's given me some mediction, and some sedatives for tonight.

[BridgesAndBalloons]

I hope the medication does help you. It sounds like the crisis team might help you, did she mention when it would be likely that you would see someone from the crisis team?

I hope the meds help you to have a better night than last night x

[on edge]

tomorrow i think they are making contact with me, she was going to send them an urgent email referral.

i hope the meds help too, and really hope the sedatives will knock me right out so i dont even have any nightmares.
but i guess im asking to much.

[BridgesAndBalloons]

Did you have nightmares last night, did you get some sleep? I really hope you managed to. Sounds like they should be getting in touch with you soon then.

How are you feeling today Jo? *sending you gentle healing cuddles*

[on edge]

i got some sleep until nightmares woke me at 3.30 ish, but then i was in such a state i couldnt get back to sleep.
my head is hurting and im completely exhausted and very low.
*embraces gentle healing cuddles*

[BridgesAndBalloons]

I'm sorry that nightmares upset you, I can relate I have nightmares most nights. Maybe you can nap in the day and get some rest that way? x

[on edge]

Been trying to nap but my thoughts are going crazy and I'm seriously out of control atm.

Not safe

In bad way