I'm really having a lot A LOT of trouble fighting right now. The urge is so bad. I want to cut, I haven't in over a year. But for the first time since I've stopped I feel like no one will care, no will see, no one will know and no one cares enough to find out, even if they could. I'm so stuck in my own hea I can't get out and I just don't think I can fight anymore. I did for so, so long, but I just can't.
I CAN'T ****ING FIGHT RIGHT NOW.
I'm not feeling suicidal, just harmful, and I could really use someone to talk to because I just can't deal and I'm half considering not even posting this, just going and grabbing my knife but this is my last ditch effort please.
I don't know how long I'll fight before I give in. Please, someone help me, talk to me, something.
Every day of our lives, want to find you there, want to hold on tight. <3
Those who like, find excuses. Those who love, find a way.
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Live up to your own potential instead of imitating someone elses.
Well, I did end up cutting, so there's a year and a half, almost two years down the ****ing drain. I'm not bleeding to bad, so I don't think I need first aid. But ****. God, at least now no one will love me for a reason and I won't have to wonder.
Every day of our lives, want to find you there, want to hold on tight. <3
Those who like, find excuses. Those who love, find a way.
~
Live up to your own potential instead of imitating someone elses.
Aww, I'm so sorry I wasn't on here earlier.
But please, don't be too hard on yourself. It's okay to slip up every now and then. Just pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and try again. I'm here if you want to talk, and I really mean it. I'll try to help you as best I can.
So what made you feel this way? And a year is a brilliant achievement - you should be proud for lasting so long.
oh non-believer, please believe me.
is there honestly nothing in this world
that keeps you living & breathing?
you're a ghost in your own
goddamn city.
I was feeling really lonely, and worthless, and for the first time in the year since I felt I was so unimportant to everyone that I had no incentive, because I didn't have the "think of how much it will hurt them" as an incentive. I've been really depressed all summer, actually, this was just a new low point.
Every day of our lives, want to find you there, want to hold on tight. <3
Those who like, find excuses. Those who love, find a way.
~
Live up to your own potential instead of imitating someone elses.
Try and find another reason to stop, maybe? I think you just need motivation. Try and think of some things that could inspire you to stop.
*hugs*
Hope you feel better soon.
oh non-believer, please believe me.
is there honestly nothing in this world
that keeps you living & breathing?
you're a ghost in your own
goddamn city.
honey i know this is probly not much help right now but your not alone... I've slipped up after almost 2 years free and feel like i'm back at square one but all i keep saying to myself is that its I went that far so I can do it again (guess its the competative streek in me...)! I think indigoviloet is right need something else to motivate you.... think i need it too to be fair!!! anyways i'm rambeling now!!! pm me anytime you need honey!!! take care xxx
Promise me you'll see my tears when i cry... Because right now you dont see me at all...
