I do understand its a social norm and that people expect it naturally. I know the bias is unintentional. But it just seems unfair that people who find eye contact difficult have to take on so much anxiety about it when there's really no reason for it other than a preference. I know our society won't change anytime soon, but it is frustrating that introverts and people with autism are expected to feel distressed constantly over if and how they use eye contact simply because the majority wants it.
I know I was perfectly happy with my social interactions until it was repeatedly pointed out that I was different, and now I have a hyper awareness of it that often leads to outright social anxiety that did not exist before I was told there was something wrong with the way I interact. I have been made to feel less when I was confident before, and I am constantly doubting my social interactions, to the point where I have avoided activities with new people. And often Im told I now over analyze it so much that I think I'm doing something wrong when others don't even notice anything off. It's actually made me more awkward to be aware of it. I personally don't think that's right when the way I interact does not hurt anyone else and often actually makes more sense.
I know first impressions are hard to ignore, but it would help if people would withhold a little judgement and wait to get to know people like me. Because once they get to know me, they realize Im nice to everyone and most my eccentricities go away over time as my comfort increases. And they quickly get used to the ones that don't go away. And even if people are thrown off by a person that interacts differently, such as lack of eye contact, unemotional affect, etc, why point it out? It's really none of their business. They wouldn't like being criticized for things they cant change about their personality, so why are introverts and people with autism criticized for theirs?
Sorry for the essay! I definitely realize people arguing that eye contact is necessary are not intentionally making me or others feel this way. I can understand you get used to what comes natural to you. Hopefully that explanation just helps some of the people on this thread understand what it's like to feel like you were simply born in the wrong society.
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