Today is one of those rare days in my mind, but I'm just going with it. I went to a counsler yesterday, which I've done quite a few times before, but something about this felt different. Like I'm ready for this. She did tell me this, that you have a lot of good defenses, and when you start to remember things, it means that your mind is ready to move on. Which is what I want. I've been so afraid of everything my entire life, and I'm done trying to please everyone else. I want to acclompish my goals, and my first one, is to save up money for us moving in January. I want my home to feel like that, a home. I'm tired of hating walking into whatever place I live this year. I want to be steady, instead of never being able to be comfortable in my own skin. I want more from my life than this. I want so much more! I just need some encourgement (: