Well, I don't think of myself as having an 'Eating Disorder' any more, but still retain certain behaviours from my years of having them. One of these seems to be stashing food! I can't really explain it but even if I never plan to actually eat it, it makes me feel...safe, that it's there. Is this something that anyone else has encountered? I seem to gain an unnatural amount of pleasure in food shopping and getting home and putting it all away... seems almost like a primal thing, I guess.
Omg yes. I mean, im not recovered or anything but I am always going food shopping, even though I live with my mum who does all the food shopping normally. Sometimes I just want to find the lowest-calorie thing and hide it, sometimes I buy biscuits or chocolate bars that I dont plan to eat and keep them in my room. I dunno why its just a thing.
i find great comfort in food shopping and storing food away and stuff like that,, i like to know where the food is and that there is alot of it there etc. i find it really weird how i gain a feeling of safety from it... i don't know how to explain it really.
I think this is quite common behaviour. I know I personally love going food shopping, and preparing fancy meals for friends and family, and even though I would say that I no longer have an ED, I still do that, because it makes me feel in control of the food that's in the house.
I love being the "cook" of the house.
My parents just buy ready meals so if I ever want to cook something I have to be the one to go out and bu it, be it go alone or with them on the weekyl shopping trip. And when I do go shopping I end up buying low calorie food i stash in my room to be eaten later, or something totally high calorie like chocolate that I hide in the back of my wardrobe and resolve to never eat it (or try too anyway).
I do stash food but i'm afraid it never lasts for long. However, i do know what you mean about the shopping and putting it away thing. I lok forward to going food shopping and LOVE putting it all away neatly lol. I always buy more than i need (stocking up like a squirrel) bu invariably eat it within a few days
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Another thing as well... is anyone really possessive over 'their' food? If I'm eating something, I really can't BEAR anyone having a bit of it or touching it even. I remind myself of my old dog Lucy who had a wonderful nature except if you went anywhere near her food bowl when she was eating, and her lips would peel back off her teeth as she growled!
hey, i know exactly what you mean. when i was anorexic i spent hours cooking for my family even though i wasn't going to eat it and i loved shopping for food! it was the highlight of my week. then i started binging and i hid food in my room- but that's normal obviously. um, i still love grocery shopping- in fact i go everyday and just buy one or two things, but that's partly so i can't binge as easily. and i don't know if anyone's ever tried touching my food, but i hate when other people are watching me eat, and i won't eat if there are sounds/smells that i don't like. *shrugs* it means i save money from not eating out.
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Another thing as well... is anyone really possessive over 'their' food? If I'm eating something, I really can't BEAR anyone having a bit of it or touching it even. I remind myself of my old dog Lucy who had a wonderful nature except if you went anywhere near her food bowl when she was eating, and her lips would peel back off her teeth as she growled!
Yes I hate other people touching my food it makes me feel rank and its so silly.
I dont stash food but when I lived alone I would buy random food that I wouldnt eat but it was there for me if i ever needed it.
I know tend to eat in secret and feel guilty for it ;s
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