need advice or something i dont know

Gem-Louise · 07-08-2012, 12:44 AM

cant control the thoughts of hurting myself they are reall strong i feel like im going crazy and if i dont hurt myself then im not alive >.< ....this may sound abit stupid or something but i really need to cut myself really bad i have already hurt myself once today and im at the end i have been trying so so hard to distract myself and i still cant get the thoughts to go away even when i am distracting myself i am still thinking about it ...i feel like i deserve to hurt myself i am such a bad person !.....I dont know what to do anymore !

Sorry if this doesnt make sencee

Tig · 07-08-2012, 01:07 AM

Hey Saphire,

I'm sorry you are feeling so bad and have had such a rough day. Well done for trying so hard to distract yourself, you should be proud of yourself for that even if whilst distracting yourself you have had thoughts of harming yourself.

Has anything in particular happened today to make things even harder?

I know it's easy for me to say and hard for you to believe but you aren't a bad person and you don't deserve this pain.

x

Gem-Louise · 07-08-2012, 01:09 AM

Thanks Tig but there isn't anything to be proud of im going to give in >.<

Tig · 07-08-2012, 01:12 AM

You've still tried all day to fight the urges and even if you do give in, you still tried and that is something to be proud of.

If you are in the UK, is there anything you can take to help you sleep so that you can get through these urges safely?

If you don't feel able to get through the urges then we aren't going to pressure you. I just hope that you will be able to keep yourself as safe as possible and take care of the wounds as best you can.

x

Gem-Louise · 07-08-2012, 01:27 AM

I dont have anything i can take im watching tv atm just cant stop thinking of it but thanks for commenting x

Tig · 07-08-2012, 01:28 AM

I hope watching tv helps. No problem :) x

Cryptic. · 07-08-2012, 05:24 AM

Hey Saphire, I'm wondering if a recent thread of mine would help you find some ideas to keep distracting yourself and keep resisting; http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...d.php?t=192432 - I hope that at least helps a little.

I too am proud of you for fighting for so long, it's a very difficult thing to do, especially when the urges get overwhelmingly intense, to fight back and to keep going is amazing.

x

Gem-Louise · 07-08-2012, 09:29 AM

Thanks cryptic :) and i will have a look at your thread too ..and also thanks for commenting :) x