Support for Jo [On Edge]...

[Heaven Knows]

Jo. I wasn't sure whether I'd be able to get on here in the morning so I just wanted to leave some *hugs* and wish you all the best for tomorrow. It will be okay darling. I'll be thinking of you. If I can get on tomorrow I have more I want to say but my phone isn't the easiest to post with.
I love you.
x Katie x

[on edge]

I can't do tomorrow I can't
My head won't stop I just want it to stop please make it stop
Something bads going to happen i know it is I can't I just cant

[Heaven Knows]

*hugs* Jo, you can get through today. I promise.

This has given me some form of strength today;
When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh.
When care is pressing you down a bit.
Rest, if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns
As every one of us sometimes learns.
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out:
Don't give up though the pace seems slow -
You may succeed with another blow.
Success is failure turned inside out -
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt.
And you never can tell how close you are.
It may be near when it seems so far:
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

It's so close to being over darling.

x Katie x

[needle girl]

hey i hope today went as well as could *hugs n snuggles* so close to being done with this <3

[on edge]

thank you Katie and Anna

im in a really bad way just now and quite heavily sedated so im sorry if this is jibberish. yesterday has ripped me apart and im not coping well.
court was horrendous and i had a severe panick attack when i saw them and an ambulance was called to stabalise my breathing. the jury are now out and we are waiting for there verdict. im really scared

im in a real bad place mentally and physically and i cant take no more

[Heaven Knows]

I'm sorry you're in such a bad way Jo. Well done for trying though. I hope they don't take too long to come back.
*hugs* So close to being over.
x Katie x

[needle girl]

goin was brave, and def helped the jury hun. very nearly done. howre you doing now? jury decide yet?

[on edge]

badly struggling
jury not back yet, what if i screwed things up
*curls up crying*

[Heaven Knows]

*hugs Jo*
I'm sure you didn't honey. It will be okay.

[on edge]

im scared katie
scared i messed everything up, scared they gonna get off just scared
*cries and cries*

[Heaven Knows]

*hugs*
I know you are darling but need to have faith. Whichever way it goes you didn't mess up - you did what you could and no one could ask any more from you <3

[on edge]

okay,
it feels like im losing control, they want to admit me to hospital but i dont want that.

jury should be back this morning hopefully

[Heaven Knows]

I know you don't want that honey but maybe not write it off completely? Might help just to take some of the pressure off you?

Glad they back soon. Mean nearly over for you.

[on edge]

yeah maybe your right katie. if i crash much more the decision will be taken out of my hands anyway i guess.

nearly over?

[Heaven Knows]

*hugs*
and it always looks better if decide to go in self rather than sectioned against will.

Very nearly honey. you've come so far. we all proud of you.

[on edge]

i guess your right

nearly over *nods* nearly

[needle girl]

*hugs* youve done all you can hun, and thats all anyone could want.


edit-
i dunno if you read it so...jo go read the end of bravery crown thread hun :)

[on edge]

thank Anna so much
was i really brave?

im really really struggling just now and finding it so hard to keep going, the flashbacks since seeing them in court have been so severe and vivid that they bring on bad panic attacks. and bad thoughts and urges are taking over too.

th jury eventually came back late yesterday they were both found guilty, theyre being sentenced today i believe.

[Heaven Knows]

*hugs*
You've been so incredibly brave darling. I'm glad they were both found guilty. I hope they get a sufficient sentence for what they did.
Pround of you Jo <3
x Katie x

[needle girl]

very brave jo :) takes lot of courage to go to court to face abusers. theres nothing else you need to do now the trials over? hope they get a long sentence.

*snuggles* have a plan in place to keep safe? wont be asked to see them any more now right?