Maybe there are reasons why you're plans don't work. Death is maybe a stop to everything but it can be hard to get there and it's best to keep trying your life options while you have them. Life isn't all bad, even if it feels that way at the moment. I know when there are more bad things than good things it can feel like too much to keep on living but that's when you need to seek out support and let people know how you're feeling. Don't bottle things up.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
it is hard to die....
i cant tell anyone they wouldnt understand... this mourning i was brave enough to ask the question that i asked in the last post i that made and they couldn't give me a fuckin real answer!! all the staff said was "do you have a bible at your house?" and when i said no because i dont have one they they said "get one and read it theresa" (they dont even say my name right its therese!!!!) then other staff complained at us for not talking about positive stuff!! ive read it before and it pointless to me to read it when it doesnt even answers the questions that i have........
i honestly think that i am too beyond lost to be found....
I'm sorry you don't feel like people understand. Maybe there are no answers, I know that people often tell others to turn to the bible when there seem to be no answers. What would it mean to you to be found, what would that look like?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
im wanting to talk with others who understand me........ im sorry if this is against the rules but ive been thinking of going to a pro suicide forum instead of a recovery forum like this is...... i feel alone with my thoughts and feelings i just want to find someone with the same veiw as me....... im sorry.........
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I'm sorry you feel like people don't understand, I think we do here but suicide is never for the best even though I 100% know that it can feel that way inside. What are the thoughts and feelings that you feel alone with? Pro forums can be bullying places sometimes and you need kindness and hope to work through things. Of course no one can stop you from trying to access a pro forum but we are here for you.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Thank you
Yeah..... Thats how I feel about sucide .....
pretty much everything I feel alone about ....
Oh I didn’t know that the suicide forum was a bullying place........
Thank you very much for being here for me !!!!
I told my therapist about the question thing and she said basically that I should keep my thoughts and feelings to myself because everyone else does not want to listen to it........ :(
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Wow, that was harsh of your therapist. Did you ask her in private? If so she should be there to discuss things like that. If she meant not to bring it up in a group or whatever then that is a bit more understandable.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
No.....
I talked to the boss of my group home and he said that he will have a meeting with the therapists boss on the 12th and he’s going to get me a new therapist
I'm sorry there is so much going on for you that you feel the need to harm yourself. Is nothing else helping at all? What would self harm do for you? Maybe there are safer ways to achieve those things.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
it would give me a outlet for the stuff going on in my life.........
thanksgiveing was... in shourt very very very bad. even self harm wasnt enough..... i had a small breakdown and broke my familys mirror with my head in my sisters bathroom because of my consions stresss that they were giveing me
That sounds really horrible, I'm sorry it was a bad experience for you. Well done for getting through it. Did you get some medical attention for your self harm? I hope you're ok and you can at least feel a bit less stressed now that thanksgiving is over.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
The end of the year is coming up and I don’t think I can handle another year and im not sure i want to ether...... all it is going to be a another year of hurt, loneliness, self hate, emptiness, pain and overwhelmingly feeling like shit!!!!!! Im sooo sick of it!!! IM SICK OF MYSELF AND MY LIFE!!!!!