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Triggering (SI) - How Can You Love Me? (poem)
A bit darker from the usual poems I write. Oh well. I needed a distraction so here goes:
How Can You Love Me?
How can you love me?
I am so disgusting.
You say to me "I love you."
Yet I am so mistrusting
When will I be free
From these cold glass walls?
I'm trying hard to break them
Because I can't hear your calls.
You're hugging me
And kissing me
Why can't I feel
Anything?!!
I'm terrified that you might die
And I won't feel a thing
I brace myself for what might come.
I know the razor's sting.
Why am I doing this to myself?!
I just don't understand.
How could you love a failure like me?
I just can't comprehend.
You say that you love me
You've said " I'll wait forever."
Forever isn't long enough
I can't hold myself together.
I'm falling and you can't save me.
My transgressions can't be purged.
I'm sinking into sorrow
And now I am submerged.
If anyone is listening
Can you please help me.
I need a reason to go on.
I'm drowning in everything.
The time ticks by
I hold my breath
I'm waiting to
Embrace death.
You say " I love you."
But I just can't see how.
I've always been a failure
And I know I'll let you down.
Right...Overwhelmed. Freaked out. Spazzing. Yeah, sorry.
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