Hey. I'm new to online groups and looking for some support.
Hey, I'm 24 years old and a graduate student studying to be a therapist. I'm diagnosed with bipolar disorder and have struggled with self harm since I was 12. I've been in recovery for the past several years up until about 6 months ago when I relapsed, and I've been thinking about it a lot more since then due to a lot of stress going on in my life. Today has been really difficult because I've been reflecting a lot on my own baggage, because that's what I have to do in order to help other people, but sometimes when I do it I feel overwhelmed and the urge to self harm comes up again. It kind of makes me feel like a fraud as a someone that is trying to help other people and it has been really hard keeping it all in because I know it isn't something that most people around me want to talk about. I'm not entirely sure how I'm supposed to go about handling these kinds of groups, but yeah that's my general experience in a nutshell at the moment.