Contains abuse - ijust couldnt help myself :/

[Living Dead Doll]

the paramedics just left and im back to sitting in the bath tub ( not filled with water btw) with the laptop
i panicked after my arms wouldnt stop bleeding, i just thought about how Liam would be so disappointed if he could see me right now >_<
the paramedics were nice, one looked shocked at the state of me , cant blame her really
i want to cry but i just cant, i just want someone to hold me , stroke my hair and tell me ill be fine
but who would want to?

[Tig]

Hey,

I'm so sorry to hear how sad you are feeling right now. I can empathise with just wanting somebody to be with you and to tell you that things will be okay etc.

I'm glad the paramedics were nice to you. Have they suggested anything you can do to get some help?

Thinking of you <3 xxx

[Living Dead Doll]

They said i should go see my doctor, not be left on my own, stay away from sharps and harmful substances, im going to go stay with a friend tomorrow, hopefully that will make me feel a bit safer,
thank you
xxx

[Tig]

I'm glad you'll be staying with a friend tomorrow. Hopefully as well as keeping you safe, it will also cheer you up a little bit. x

[Living Dead Doll]

yeah, they've been there for me before so they no how to handle me if i get low, i keep going really hot and then really cold , its horrible :/ x

[Tig]

That's good. Aw, sorry to hear that. Do you think perhaps you could try and get some rest? x

[Living Dead Doll]

i think i might try and sleep, thank you x

[Tig]

Hope you can. No problem xx

[metal_fiddler]

Im sorry you feel this way. You definately need hugs. Good for you for calling the paramedics, safety is a key thing. I hope you are able to get some rest tonight. Im sure liam would be worried about you not dissapointed in you. I wish you the very best. Take care stay safe!

[Living Dead Doll]

i managed to get a couple of hours sleep, im still going hot and cold and keep shaking though :/

[Tig]

Sorry you still aren't feeling good. How has the rest of the day been? x

[Living Dead Doll]

to be honest it was horrible, (im in between living with a friend and my parents house atm) and last night my mum decided to have a go at me because ive been emotional. today (friday) has been a lot worse, the guy ive been in love with for over a year has decided to tell mybest friend he loves her when only last week he said he loved me :( . a close friend of mine found out what happened and called me selfish, saying i need to stop being so emo. im still in a lot of pain from my arms, im trying not to cry and its all building up. turns out my stepsister and brother are staying this weekend so i have to go back to an empty flat (flatmates away) , everyones busy with their mothers and im going to be on my own ::(