My doctor said I'm fine.

[[SundayGirl]]

I've had an ED for a long time as well as other mh issues.
My ED therapist is worried about my mental state & feels therapy with regards to the ED is "stuck" & would like to discharge me but is worried about me having no support. She has tried to speak to my GP & liaise with my MH worker (who always cancels appointments) but isn't getting much luck.
My eating habits are restrictive & I binge/purge a lot.
Today I saw my GP, I was crying & begged for help to which I was greeted with "you've kept your weight stable for x months, you're fine".
Now, I've purposely been trying to maintain. I'm underweight & my BMI sits on the anorexic range (barely). I've been struggling to maintain because it's mentally difficult but it's like my GP has just given me the go ahead to start losing again.
I'm not ill.
She dismissed my purging as well as my weight.
So I feel like she said I'm a fat attention seeker.

I'm distraught.
I was struggling before this app & now I'm over the edge.
Please help me make sense of this. (Oh & I also told her I was suicidal to which she corrected...apparently I'm not)

[Wonderland.]

I'm so sorry to hear your doctor totally disregarded all the problems you are still having. Would it help to get the opinion of another doctor? Although it might be scary given the experience you have just had, it might really help.

Have you spoken to you ED therapist about the way the appointment went and see what she feels might help?

[[SundayGirl]]

Thank you so much for the reply.
I actually had a psyc appointment after this as an "emergancy" but nothing much was put in place.
I've literally just quit my job also because I feel that bad.
I don't see EDS until Friday. I feel to exhausted to repeat myself AGAIN, I've told two doctors today I'm unsafe, frightened & not coping.

[Wonderland.]

What if anything came out of the psych appointment? Are you getting any upped support?

Well done for being so honest about how you have been feeling, thats not always easy to do. I'm sorry to hear that they haven't been taking things seriously. Is there anyone who you feel will listen?

It might help to put some plans in place to help you get through to your appointment of friday safely.

[[SundayGirl]]

I was given meds to calm me down but wasn't allowed much incase I ended up oding on what they gave me.
It was pointless & I feel awfully low.
I've spent my day purging, I feel so huge. I almost did OD today but used other behaviours instead.
I'm just in such a dark place.

[LittleCloud]

Wish I had words but hearing you

[ShakeItOut]

I'm sorry you're in such a difficult, dark place.
How are you doing today?
Sending love x

[[SundayGirl]]

I'm not doing good at all.'i took an OD Sunday & was almost sectioned. I'm struggling to eat & not binge/purge.
I just feel so hopeless & fat

[LittleCloud]

*hugs* don't have many words, but sending love and support- as much as I can