Marimar!
Great that you finally move! I just tried your tip about talking to myself in the mirror - it made me feel more hopeful, thank you for the idea.
Is it possible to start your own anonymous support group? How big is the expat community where you live? I suppose I am only asking that because I am not sure if you speak the local language of your new country. I live in Korea and I speak Korean very poorly. I also could not find a support group. But I wish I had tried to start one up online using Facebook, Meetup or Couchsurfers, or
http://www.eatingdisordersanonymous....rtmeeting.html
It's good to hear that the people around you are starting to make friends and want to hang out a lot! But I know what you mean about eating out together. I HATE that too. I wonder if it might be useful to start a new thread about that and get advice from more RYL people? I think I'll do so in a couple days. The only strategy that has worked for me in this regard is being very frank about which restaurants I would not enjoy going to, I try and only go to places I feel okay about eating at. Because, for me the awkwardness that comes with being quite firm about where I would like to eat when I am in a group of people - is less awkward than when I end up with a plate of food in front of me I cannot bring myself to eat. But, speaking up about which kinds of restaurants you would be willing to visit is is really hard to do when you are only getting to now the people you are spending time with and if these people also work with you.
I sometimes tell people that I am vegan or have digestive problems and can only eat very healthily in order to avoid eating heavy meals with them - but still keep the opportunity of spending time with them open. In don't know how good or 'right' this is for my recovery - I want to be honest. But, the fact of the matter is that I am not ever going to be honest with my boss or co-worker about my eating disorder.
I am sorry that you are worrying about your weight. You must be flustered right now - so forgetting your meds happens :( Maybe you should put them on top of your toilet paper holder? :D Sorry, I know that's a gross idea, but you'll sure see them when you need to pee.
Oh, thank you so much for asking about my move. It is not going very smoothly, I've said goodbye to my friends here and am spending tomorrow and Friday with my boyfriend to say goodbye before I fly out. I thought I was doing really well, but today I just felt so terrible, I let my anxiety get to me - even though I knew the anxiety would pass - and purged for the first time in a long time, I almost couldn't believe what I was doing, throwing away what I had worked so hard for - and it ended up being a day of purging and that is really devastating to me. Sorry to be a downer when you are also not feeling great right now. You are right, you have a wonderful opportunity for yourself and your career - you sound so sincere and determined when you say you want to make the most of it. And that truly makes me think that you can. Don't let the anxiety right now get to you, just remind yourself that it will start to lessen the more that you are in your new environment.
Yes, it's really good to know there is someone in a similar situation. Thank you so much for being honest with your struggles in this thread xxoxo Talk soon.