Hey,
I used to post on RYL quite a lot, mainly whilst i was really ill and needed the support. The journals were a great source of venting for me. I've just read through all my posts. Back then i was so very depressed and hopeless. I;d just been diagnised with bipolar, i;d lost my job, i never thought i;d work again and i was in an abusive realtionship. Looking back i never thought it would ever get better. I;ve now been self harm free for 3 years.
I've now been at my job for 5 years (only part time anymore triggers bipolar episodes), which to say i never thought i'd work again has been something i never thought i;d achieve. They;ve been really good with making adjustments so i can continue working.
I met my parter 3 years ago and compared to my ex he;s a godsend. He understands my mental illness and he supports me. Years ago i didnt have that and i never thought i would get anywhere close to meeting someone who was right for me.
I'm looking back on my entries and back then i was suidical. I ddn;t want to live. That's now changed. I want to live more than ever. I want a future with my partner. I want to live life to the full.
I feel like i;ve been given a second chance and grateful for the fact i didn;t off myself when i had chance.
I'm not posting this to gloat, but because i want everyone else on here to have a good life. To know that even in the darkest of times, theres still a chance of things to get better. If you'd told me that 6 years ago id have laughed in your face. I never thought i;d have a future. I'm thankful RYL was around back then as it gave me amazing support and a safe place to vent when i needed to. To everyone here i hope you get your happy ending
