Triggering (SI/Suicide) - lossing control..

lizzy100 · 09-03-2010, 11:55 AM

things have been bad lately and i feel/felt like i was lossing control of myself and going a little crazy. i si-d in various ways and felt suicidal. i ended up writing a letter to my doc saying how bad things were and that i basically need help to change my meds because its not helping. today she has summoned me to go see her this pm

. i hope shel be ok about it and that she wont want to look at my arm. i think its ok now. i dont know what to say though, hence why i wrote a letter. i just want to stop feeling like this

Defender Of The Faith · 09-03-2010, 09:16 PM

*hugs* I'm sorry to hear you're having such a hard time atm... But it's good that you went to see your doctor, and asked for help. I don't really have any advice... Just... Try to let them help as much as they can, yeh? It'll get better, you just gotta hang on till it does :)
How did it go?
Take care
xx

lizzy100 · 09-03-2010, 11:44 PM

thanks scaredandalone, it went ok, she was nice and she didnt have a go at me about the od or anything. she said i was quiet. shes changing my medication to see if that helps n is gonna see me in a couple of weeks.
i just feel so down, and i really hate uni at the moment. i cant cope with it all.

Defender Of The Faith · 10-03-2010, 09:21 AM

Yeh, I know how you feel. I'm struggling at school. I know I failed my exams, it's that bad. But maybe now you're getting the help you need, it'll start to get better. Easier.
What is it you're hating about uni?
xx

lizzy100 · 10-03-2010, 09:05 PM

mm i dont know, i think once i start to get help itl get harder because of the stuff theyl make me tlk about. just hate the people, i have no friends. hate being alone. hated the stuff we've been doing lately.
the new meds are making me feel really tired and drugged up :(

Katiee · 10-03-2010, 09:36 PM

I'm sorry to hear you've been feeling bad hun.
But I'm really proud of you for writing a letter to your doctor. That's a really good step. Now you can get the help and support you need.
Hope you're alright. xo.

lizzy100 · 11-03-2010, 09:52 AM

yea she said shed get the ball rolling on talking to someone, and wack the meds up so i suppose. hopefully itl help . ta