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Old 19-12-2011, 09:11 PM   #20081
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I'm sorry. I wish I was like M, I wish I could live up to all you want me to be. I'm sorry my belief in God disappoints you and has send me on a path you secretly dissaprove of. I wish I was everything you wanted in a daughter, I wish I was someone you were proud of but the truth is I never will be. I will follow this path as my faith is all I have left, they made sure I have nothing else, I'm damaged goods and I will never ever be all you want me to be. I'm sorry



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Old 19-12-2011, 11:46 PM   #20082
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Why the fuck did you have to leave? I feel so alone and in the next couple of days It's going get so much worse.



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Old 20-12-2011, 12:22 AM   #20083
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Oh the undescribable rage.





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Old 20-12-2011, 02:32 AM   #20084
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Do you even love me any more? Sometimes I'm not so sure.






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Old 20-12-2011, 04:38 AM   #20085
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You sexually abused and I have to pretend it never happened. But it did. And sometimes I forget, and sometimes all I can do is REMEMBER. And I know that if I mentioned, you would have forgotten it too, or will treat me as mad.



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Old 20-12-2011, 04:55 AM   #20086
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I hope I have the courage to do this. It has been there for so long. And part of me feels this thrill of excitement when I know I may not see certain people again, when I'm hugging them and know it may be for the last time. And I think of what they would say if it was and if they would really care. And then I get upset that I am probably safe, that it probably won't happen. And since I know that, why won't the thoughts go away? Why are they there going round and round, still fixating on that date? And why am I even mentioning it? I know it is just a website but still....get a grip Emma! Just make a concrete decision one way or another instead of this obsessing about it and that date.





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Old 20-12-2011, 05:18 AM   #20087
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you haven't been on for a while now, so my guess is you're drunk. some things don't change i guess. i hope one day you find yourself.

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Old 20-12-2011, 08:49 AM   #20088
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I'm sorry I've been so insensitive, I'm sorry I forget why you're snapping, that you're struggling so much, I'm sorry I talk about things that upset you. I try, I really do try but I'm not perfect. I'm sorry I'm not be there for you in a way you find caring and helpful... Maybe you could tell me what you need?



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Old 20-12-2011, 09:06 AM   #20089
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I don't hate you, by any means. You've just hurt me. A lot :/



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Old 20-12-2011, 12:07 PM   #20090
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You look so great. It makes me happy to see that.
I know I can never say that to you because you would take it the wrong way but even though I don't get to see you/speak to you any more I'm glad you appear to be doing ok.



Always seem to get things just that little bit wrong.

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Old 20-12-2011, 12:43 PM   #20091
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You'll know by 4:10.



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Old 20-12-2011, 01:23 PM   #20092
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Fuck you you ungrateful piece of shit, I am trying so fecking hard here. I'm practically having to follow you around with cleaning supplies because you leave a mess everywhere you go. I'm trying so hard to be nice to you and do nice things and feed you. Try having some patience? 'Cause not only will I fall off the edge I'll fecking jump.




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Old 20-12-2011, 09:12 PM   #20093
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I'm so very sorry but I can't help you. I should be able to but I can't. Sorry doesn't even come close.



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Old 20-12-2011, 10:22 PM   #20094
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Please please please please help me and look after me. I'm struggling to cope. I don't want to go back there. I want to make it through this christmas, I need to. I need you to help me, please.



Let us go then you and I, when the evening is spread out against the sky, like a patient etherized upon a table
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Old 20-12-2011, 10:28 PM   #20095
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I really need to talk to you and I can't. I don't know what I'm supposed to do.

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Old 20-12-2011, 10:30 PM   #20096
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I'd really need your help. I'd really need you to see me as your daughter. Yet, somehow, it seems you can't see me as anything else but the family's black goat.



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Old 21-12-2011, 03:41 AM   #20097
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I need someone to actually hear what the hell I'm saying so I don't feel like I'm shouting at a damn brick wall. I know the positives, I really do but y'know what? Just because they are there does not mean the negatives have disappeared! If anything they are worse because I KNOW I don't deserve the positives and I feel like I have either mislead everyone or they are trying to just get me to go along with them for an easy life or they just plain don't hear what the hell I'm saying. I feel more isolated because of how everyone reacts. I wish someone would just understand what I mean, but nobody does. I deserve to harm and destroy myself. I wish I didn't because actually, part of me really dislikes it. But I don't know how to get around the compulsion to harm myself more and more, worse and worse every single time. Destroying myself is the only thing that feels right and at the same time it scares me. But now I can't even talk about it because people prefer to steer the conversation onto how well uni etc is going. So I just feel more isolated and in turn that makes me more destructive. I'm a freak. But I deserve this so it is ok.





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Old 21-12-2011, 05:25 AM   #20098
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That's easy for you to say- you've never been through it. You don't know how painful, uncomfortable, and utterly humiliating it is. All I want to do is go to a corner and cry, yet you just don't care and act like everything's fine. If people weren't already staring at me and making comments (which, by the way, they were), they sure will be now. I hate this. With a passion.

And, I know how you pride yourself in how you're so "predictable"... but you're really not. And it kinda (really) drives me crazy.


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Old 21-12-2011, 07:35 PM   #20099
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Old 21-12-2011, 10:56 PM   #20100
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I'm just like you, mother. Lol, kill me now.



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