Been admitted. - Page 5

Fire Fly · 08-11-2015, 06:19 PM

I'll speak to someone in Occy health perhaps when I see them for counselling on Wednesday. I am finding it hard to process what's going on and sleeping awfully and having flashbacks.

It's not therapy it's counselling. They are probably only offering me a certain amount of sessions which I'll find out about.

I run out of my HIV tablets because I was an idiot and didn't pick up the rest of them from the hospital pharmacy in time and then went to my gps and they gave me a prescription for them and I went today to the pharmacy and they will have to order them in. I'm not sure what to do as I can't miss these tablets.

I feel low. I think all the energy has disappeared within me and I feel Bleurgh.

stumpy · 08-11-2015, 08:30 PM

Is there another pharmacy that would have them in stock? if so maybe think about taking your prescription to another pharmacy, even if it means travelling a little further to the pharmacy than you normally would, does it give instructions in the leaflet what to do if you miss a dose? usually it says to take it as soon as you remember, which could be the next day, maybe go to the hospital pharmacy and pick them up first thing in the morning?, I don't really know what else to suggest, *hugs* hope you manage to get the H.I.V meds and that you feel better soon :) x

Fire Fly · 11-11-2015, 02:10 PM

Long story with HIV tablets with 111 breaching confidentiality. Will be writing complaint.

Really screwed up big time. I don't know. I just feel like a failure and deserve pain.

Ballerina123 · 12-11-2015, 08:19 PM

Hugs
What's been going on for you? Can you talk about it here?

Hope you feel better soon sorry you had to go through this xx

Fire Fly · 12-11-2015, 08:30 PM

I burnt myself after being clean of all self harm for 16 months. I feel like a failure who deserves everything that happens. I'm struggling to cope. They referred to me to a burns unit where I went today and they said if it isn't looking better on Monday they will need to consider a skin graft. Can't believe I screwed up and I don't know what to do. I need help. I just want the flash backs to stop.

My partner is being an Arse. He's being a right grump and didn't want me to get support from HTT saying they won't take me on. But after the burn I had to see psych liaison and then i got referred to HTT.

I just can't cope. I have pills and I want to take them all. I want this pain and misery to end. If the the first 23 years of my life have been **** what's to say the next 23 years won't be shitter. I can't cope and want to end it.

Ballerina123 · 14-11-2015, 01:01 AM

How is the burn? Have you been managing to look after it?

Can you hand your pills over to someone? I had to do this recently and it was a really hard thing to do but it definitely kept me safe on a really rocky few nights.
It will only take one weak moment and you could end up taking them all and regretting that too.

Sending love. Just want to to be safe and happy.

Fire Fly · 14-11-2015, 05:17 PM

I'm not sure how the burn is. It's very sore but I can't take the bandaging off. They are rebandergering it on Monday.

Yeah I may hand my pills over but that's really hard as its a safety net that's keeping me going to know that if I can't hack it they're there. I don't know.

I'm really struggling.

Fire Fly · 16-11-2015, 02:23 AM

Sorry to bump. Didn't want to make a new thread. I've been admitted inpatient on to a ward in the trust I work in. So not happy. I'm just fed up of this. I feel low and just want a hug please.

Ballerina123 · 16-11-2015, 08:31 AM

Hugs xxx

Hope they can help you sweetie x

Arienette · 16-11-2015, 03:20 PM

Same as ballerina123. I'm sorry it got to this stage, but I hope they can provide the right support for you and help you.

*hugs*

If you come near my trust I'll come visit you if I can. Xx

EyelinerAndCigarettes · 16-11-2015, 03:51 PM

I'm sorry you've been admitted but I'm relieved to hear you're safe.

I know you're not happy with the admission but I'm certain they cannot tell your work without your consent.

Have you seen a psychiatrist or a doctor yet?

I love you!
x x x

Wonderland. · 16-11-2015, 09:40 PM

Sending you lots of love and cuddles <3

Epicene · 16-11-2015, 09:43 PM

Thinking of you and hope you get the help you need.

Fire Fly · 16-11-2015, 10:23 PM

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Originally Posted by Ballerina123

Hugs xxx

Hope they can help you sweetie x

Thank you honey.

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Originally Posted by Arienette

Same as ballerina123. I'm sorry it got to this stage, but I hope they can provide the right support for you and help you.

*hugs*

If you come near my trust I'll come visit you if I can. Xx

Aww thanks. I really appreciate it. I didn't want it to come to this and can't believe it has done.

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Originally Posted by EyelinerAndCigarettes

I'm sorry you've been admitted but I'm relieved to hear you're safe.

I know you're not happy with the admission but I'm certain they cannot tell your work without your consent.

Have you seen a psychiatrist or a doctor yet?
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I love you!
x x x

Not happy at all. But I have to deal with it. I saw the consultant briefly where I explained what had happened as she hadn't read my notes properly. They were a bit worried about my pulse again as its high. Not sure what they going to do as they were worried about it last time as well. I love you too.

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Originally Posted by Wonderwall.

Sending you lots of love and cuddles <3

thank you sweetie.

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Originally Posted by Epicene

Thinking of you and hope you get the help you need.

Thank you

Saw the consultant briefly where I explained what had been going on. She said that she will see me tomorrow properly in the morning and if I still want to move because I'm an employee of the trust then she will arrange it and it would happen quickly. She also mentioned if I'm feeling less crummy and this urge to die with a deadline goes then perhaps I could go home with HTT - which I would prefer.

But realistically I don't think much will be different then to what it is now. Just because I'm stuck in hospital when the deadline is meant to be just means it will await until I get out. <---- I know that's not the attitude but that's how I feel. I feel that low and flashbackky that I don't know what to think or do.

Arienette · 16-11-2015, 10:25 PM

hugs i hope they move you soon and then you should take the opportunity to rest and refresh as best you can because i agree, i doubt miuch will change overnight considering everything that has been goign on for you

x

Ballerina123 · 17-11-2015, 12:32 AM

Can you tell the consultant that you will hurt yourself anyway?

Maybe you need to wait till you have had some treatment, give it a chance and see how you feel in a few days or a week.

Better off getting as well as you can while you're there and not going back than leaving too early and having to go back and starting that cycle that's really hard to get out of.

Sending love x

Fire Fly · 20-11-2015, 01:02 AM

Thank you for your replies. I try and talking to nurses but finding it difficult because I'm not in ten 'recovery' mind set.

I tried to self discharge and they put me on a 5(2). I feel frustrated and annoyed that things aren't going my way. I feel sick and tierd of this and it's not working in my favour. I shouldn't be in hospital. I'm not sick.

[Luna] · 20-11-2015, 09:13 AM

I'm sorry things are so rough for you right now and they've put you on a 5(2). They obviously feel you need to be there for your own safety. Try and work with them love. I know it's frustrating but let them help you.
Sending tons of love x

Ballerina123 · 20-11-2015, 10:08 AM

Sort you're struggling so much.
Hopefully the section will keep you safe until you feel safe enough to go home.

What makes you think you're not sick?

Pi.R^2 · 22-11-2015, 02:37 PM

Sorry you ended up on a 5(2). What reasons did they give you for doing this?

I second what everyone else has said and I hope things start looking up soon.