Worried About Tonight
It's Valentine's Day. And guess what, I have a Valentine for the first time.
My incredible boyfriend of four months is taking us out to dinner tonight. We went to a mac n' cheese festival a few weekends ago and we're going to the restaurant that won best mac n' cheese.
But I'm worried.
I always have a problem with eating out. I try and eat at home as much as possible, and when I do go out, I tend to binge. Especially if I'm drinking.
I'll probably have a drink or two tonight and I'll probably eat a lot.
That should be okay, right? I might be a few pounds heavier tomorrow, but that's no big deal. Except for me it is, the weight tends to stick with me. I am big into working out and lifting weights, and my weigh in day is Friday. I dread seeing that number on the scale go up. It hurts me.
I'm afraid of going out tonight and enjoying myself and feeling guilty about it and wanting to purge later.
It feels like a never-ending cycle.
Last edited by andiej13 : 14-02-2018 at 09:51 PM.
Reason: Wanting to add to it.