BMI/Numbers/Weight Triggers - Maybe a hug or something...
I really don't like posting threads on here, I am just really confused right now and really struggling. I just want to be thin so bad, and at this point it's the only thing on my mind. I'm always thinking about diet and excersize plans.
I know it's not good, but I've been planning on restricting down to 200 calories a day until I lose the weight. Right now I'm 92 pounds at a BMI of 17.4...85 pounds is my goal. I've had it all planned out, what I'd eat and when...purging when my mother cooks dinner. I just feel so guilty, instead of restricting like I've planned...I binge! I don't know why. It's so hard, everyday when I come home from work the first thing I do is take a lot of food up to my room and just eat...I don't purge...I just eat. Fat, fat, fat, that's all I'll ever be. I am absolutely disgusting and I hate myself for doing all of this. I'm so lost...
I don't know why I posted this...guess I just need some hugs, support or kind words
Jess xx
I wanna stay inside all day
I want the world to go away
Jess babe *snuggles and holds you tight* im sorry i don't know what to say right now but i wantd to let you know i read your post and i am here for you always okay?
Its because your natural bodily instinct is to eat a BMI of 17.4 is underweight, your not even in the healthy weight band, let alone overweight. Could you find a way to try and focus your thought and energies onto things that will build self confidence rather than diet plans, as the one you have talked about it extreme and very bad for you.
Maybe try to keep a balance, if exercise makes you feel good, plan a healthy meal, with veg, carbs and protein before you go out. If planning keeps you busy maybe changing the things in it may help. These are just ideas though. I hope others will be able to provide more support as this seems a little like im mumbling along :S
xxx Take care Jess xxx
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I think you're binging because your body needs the extra calories and nutrition and it's telling you it need them. 200 cals is not nearly enough for your body to function properly.
I havn't really got much more to say, I'm not good with advice, but please, please try and look after yourself hon.
*massive huggles*
xx
I agree with the above, you're binging bacuse your body needs the food.
92lbs is tiny sweetheart, you really don't need to loose any more weight.
Please try to take care, I'm sorry I don't have more advice at the moment.
*cuddles*
Jess Hunni, i love you chick and its really bad that you are going through this. Hun you know that 17.4 isn't healthy and the reason why you are binging at times is because your body is crying out for food, its a ntrual instint that is really hard to fight (and that we should have fight really). But sweeti i know your pain & i feel for you darling i really do. Are you getting any help for this, you need some support, before its too late.
