I cooked a meal & had hot food made within my house for the first time in a week (not being pro, just being lazy). Had never made red thai curry in this way before, it was delicious! Took Cam's awesome recipe suggestion and went with it :)
Made some more notes than yesterdays debarcle poor show and got myself out of my pit of woe I was in the previous night. Haven't got as much done as I wanted but had a laugh with a friend whom I invited over but felt confident enough to let know I would have to be doing some work too. Usually would decide not to have them over at all then (if pressing work needs to be done) and would feel mean not to give undivided attention if they did come round. But actually, that is hard to sustain and exhausting for both parties?
'What came first, the phoenix or the flame?'
'I think the answer is that a circle has no beginning'
I have wanted to get a hair cut in ages, but hairdressers make me highly anxious. I have booked an appointment and in half an hour will be getting a haircut. Having a coffee to calm myself in a cafe beside hairdresser first. Maybe coffee isn't the most calming or appropriate thing to have, but it's yummy and I'm being brave.
I have a house! (For next year of uni.)
Did plenty of work.
Chatted about stuff with my friend.
Sorted money which scared me for a little bit.
Lovely healthy dinner!
Cleaned my bathroom.
For you to be here now trillions of drifting atoms had somehow to assemble in an intricate and intriguingly obliging manner to create you. It's an arrangement so specialized and particular that it has never been tried before and will only exist this once. That is of course the miracle of life.
-Bill Bryson
Don't ever frown because you never know who's falling in love with your smile.
- there was a bit of sun and not much rain.
- my mum and her friend want me to look into a vol. job at my mum's friend's work.
- had lunch on Tastecard at one of my favourite local restaurants.
- took some really pretty photos.
- had a positive CBT session.
- bought my first Christmas present.
Well done everyone. You're doing amazingly and should be proud of yourselves.
- I made salt dough decorations with my mum.
- I haven't had a cigarette today.
- D and I are trying to warm up with candles which smell of cinnamon.
- I felt pretty today. Womanly. Even if the 'maturity' in my face is beginning to scare me a little.
- Took the dog for a walk even though I didn't feel like it.
- Tidied my room, which has been a work in progress for weeks!
- Eggnog latte in Starbucks :)
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
Yesterday
Despite an hour of sleep I felt energetic for my lecture and the afternoon ones were really enjoyable :)
I made notes and sat in kitchen socialising at the same time
Which meant I watched an episode of X-Files guilt free. Did this whilst colouring in my colouring book :)
Today
Started & finished topic I had been putting off, a foundational one that will help make other topics make more sense. Despite waking up late into day I was way more productive than when I was awake 40 hours in row.
Now off to a friends flat for some drinks, and do so guilt free given I had a productive afternoon/evening.
Wanted to buy binge food earlier but instead focused on notes. Just finished notes and had dinner, given I will be drinking. Better state of evening than if I had listened to myself and bought binge stuff before.
'What came first, the phoenix or the flame?'
'I think the answer is that a circle has no beginning'
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