*TRIGGER* Overdosing

ProzacSmile · 02-09-2018, 10:01 PM

I might be in the wrong place.

I need help. I'm seriously on the point of considering overdose. I need a break from life.. from everything.

I just don't know how to cope with anything and I can't say anything out loud. I have a wonderful husband. A few good friends. But I'm always sceptical wondering who says what behind my back.

I can't even tell u what I'm looking for here
Just anything I guess.

Plus pills make me feel sick 🤮🤮🤮

Ahimsa · 03-09-2018, 12:43 AM

Hiya,

Do you have any support or anyone you can talk to? I can get you a list of links and phone numbers if that would be helpful.

I'm glad you've reached out for help x

one_step_closer · 04-09-2018, 07:21 PM

Hi, I'm sorry you've been feeling so bad. How are things now? I know it can be hard to deal with everything and I understand why overdosing can seem like an idea to try but it won't solve anything. When I'm triggered to overdose but trying to stay safe I remind myself of all the horrible aspects of taking an overdose and what comes afterwards, like what you've said about pills making you feel sick. I have a note of this and the other things that make overdosing awful that I keep inside an envelope in a soothing box so I can look at it only when I'm triggered. What would you hope for overdosing to give you? Is there anything else safer you can think of that might give you a bit of the same effect? If you feel able to post more about the things you can't say out loud then please do if it would help to get things off your chest. I hope you're doing a bit better at least.

ProzacSmile · 15-09-2018, 11:28 PM

Thank you for your replies.

I guess i just need a break. A sleep. A step back from life. From all the pain (mental & physical) and the hurt.

Want help but how do I get it without losing everything ��

nonperson · 15-09-2018, 11:31 PM

Why does getting help mean you'll lose everything?

Getting help could surely make you gain so much more.

ProzacSmile · 15-09-2018, 11:55 PM

I'm terrified I would lose my family, my kids. I'm just about keeping **** together atm.. holding on by my fingertips

nonperson · 15-09-2018, 11:59 PM

I'm sure they'd prefer you to be healthy rather than suffering in silence.

one_step_closer · 16-09-2018, 11:14 AM

NP is right. If you get to the point where you overdose or completely break down it would likely be even worse for your family than if you were to get the help you need right now. Are you worried that a professional would say you couldn't look after your kids or are you worried that your family wouldn't stick by you?

MyLastKiss · 25-09-2018, 07:39 PM

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Originally Posted by ProzacSmile

I'm terrified I would lose my family, my kids. I'm just about keeping **** together atm.. holding on by my fingertips

I just want ta say that I can relate to your fear. Even if my situation isn't so bad as your's probably are, I would never seek help again as I imagine that it would be the end of my family. Probably I'm wrong, as ppl above suggest u are, but I'm not taking the risk. Don't get me wrong, getting help is often the best, but I can relate to the decision not going for it.
Take care