I shouldn't feel this way
I relapsed and bruised after almost six months of not bruising or cutting. While part of me was angry that I harmed after so long free, another part of me felt like I was meeting an old friend. The comfort, the release, all the stuff I associate with harming came back.
I know I shouldn't feel that way, but I can't help it either.
No one knows about my relapse so I wanted to post here to get it off my chest. Hiding my bruises are stressing me out, but I don't want my Mom to find out either. I am on vacation so hiding them in a hotel room is harder (like when I undress to shower or get dressed).
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