Tomorrow

[Crazy Cat Lady]

Hi,

I'm seeing my new Psychologist tomorrow (seen her two times; first two sessions were an assessment)

She knows traumatic things have happened and knows I have PTSD, among other mental health complications.

I have a feeling I'm going to have to try and vocally talk about the past tomorrow. I know I won't be able to go into details as that may take a while but I think I'm going to have to admit to her what's happened in the past.

I'm really scared, really really scared.

I tried to speak to my old therapist about the past and felt extremely suicidal and low.

I hope I will be able to deal with it?
Do you think it will make me feel better if I admit it to her vocally? She asked me whether she can "guess" what happened, I said no, not yet. She understood. I know I'm going to have to open up. I think not having spoken about it properly has caused me to be unwell for so long.

Thanks for reading x

[PeachyK]

I know I'm a little late, but you could preface what you're going to say by saying something along the lines of "It brings up a lot of raw emotion when I talk about this, and I've stuffed it down and ignored it for so long that bringing it all out might cause a meltdown of sorts". Or something similar.

But it's good to get it out! An old therapist of my mum's explained it this way: Think of a santa bag. And think of each toy as a worry or a problem. If you keep stuffing the santa bag with toys, they all can't fit, and eventually it will bust at the seams. So you have to take out one toy at a time, work on it, put it somewhere else. Take out another one, focus on that, put it somewhere else, etc.