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Juella · 07-02-2018, 08:03 PM

So far the Man warned you about poison many times, yet you still aren't poisoned. Don't you think he is just a big liar and he is just trying to scare you?

Please, keep eating. I know you can do it. It's all going to be okay.

tamobhuuta · 07-02-2018, 09:26 PM

Thanks for that. I ate so much today! Still not the recommended amount but more than I have been.

tamobhuuta · 15-02-2018, 03:24 PM

Please help!

I saw my psych today. He asked me about my eating. I was honest. He asked me what my BMI is and I told him an estimate. He didn't have a problem with it. Why do my family want me to eat more???

Moonlight Princess · 15-02-2018, 09:09 PM

Two things there lovely - you gave him an estimate and as you are genuinely struggling with eating then there might have been a part of that could have nudged that up to avoid more scrutiny on your eating which I know you find difficult.

I don't think we can actually comment on what the psychiatrist said and what he might mean. We don't know the detailed context of your care or the actual context of the meeting and what was said. In fact even if we did we wouldn't be qualified to comment

However what I can hear is that something in his reaction made you uncertain why people are asking you to eat more so my suggestions are, you could ask your psychiatrist for confirmation about what he meant and/or ask your friends and family for more clarification about why they're asking you to eat more.

tamobhuuta · 17-02-2018, 07:07 PM

My mum has been on google and is worried about me suddenly collapsing or dying, but I am a healthy bmi.

tamobhuuta · 19-02-2018, 07:15 PM

My head is a mess. The Man is telling me my food is poison, all of it, and my family want to hurt and control me. He says I need to stop eating and my mum says my eating is disordered. I had a chocolatey snack to please her. I used to love chocolate but the Man went MENTAL. I can't cope.

Sketchy · 19-02-2018, 08:55 PM

Don’t listen to the man. Listen to your mum and your team. Could you speak to your team about the man? Maybe they can help.

tamobhuuta · 20-02-2018, 06:55 PM

Today was a bit better. I haven't really eaten healthily but ate a bit more and feel in control. Have agreed with L how much I am having for dinner and my family won't bug me. I am hoping the Man will be OK with that.

Pi.R^2 · 24-02-2018, 11:36 AM

How are you getting on food-wise now? Is L able to reassure you about food not being poisoned etc?

tamobhuuta · 24-02-2018, 02:34 PM

I start off trying to eat a sensible amount but my head goes MENTAL the more I eat.

tamobhuuta · 26-02-2018, 06:07 PM

Why is eating so hard? My cpn was off sick today. Yesterday I succeeded in eating less which felt great but at the same time I felt bad for lying to my family. I don't know what I want...

Pi.R^2 · 28-02-2018, 12:44 PM

It can be confusing not knowing what you want and being pulled in different directions by your mind. Maybe you could try to make a pros and cons list of becoming trapped in an eating disorder, to help you try to decide what you want.

tamobhuuta · 06-03-2018, 07:39 PM

My cpn is off right now so I will ask here, what are the pros and cons?

I ate too much today. I feel bad but also quite pleased because I ignored the Man. How do I stay in control??

Pi.R^2 · 08-03-2018, 08:11 PM

Pros
Feeling temporarily in control

Cons
Losing control.
Never feeling like you've lost enough weight.
Simultaneously passing out all over the shop and feeling like you're 'not ill enough'.
Feeling tired and drained.
Not being able to enjoy your favourite treats.
Missing out on social gatherings because food.
Having to think about food all the damn time yet not actually getting to eat it.
People worrying.
Getting into arguments with people who are clearly right but your eating disorder tells you to ignore the logic and argue the toss anyway.
Not having enough energy to fuel your brain to fight hard against the other difficulties you face.
Spending time thinking about food/counting/purging/wandering aimlessly around supermarkets working out what you will allow yourself to eat when you could be doing approx 100 better things with your time.
Forgetting all the great things about yourself because all you see is your eating disorder.
Forgetting that your worth is so so so much more than what you weigh.
Having to go to hospital.
Dying.

tamobhuuta · 08-03-2018, 09:57 PM

Thank you. I am going to put all those reasons somewhere I can see them and be reminded. Thank you so much! X

tamobhuuta · 10-03-2018, 02:44 PM

I. Can't. Do. This. I am hungry but a) I need to stay in control and b) it might be poison.

Pi.R^2 · 11-03-2018, 11:44 AM

I hope you managed to eat something. Try to keep remembering that every single time the man has said that your food is poisoned, you have been just fine and it turned out that he was lying.