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19-04-2018, 02:15 AM
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Feel free to be yourself
Join Date: Sep 2008
Location: United Kingdom of backwards thinking?
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Support please x
I don’t know what’s going on for me. I feel like literally I am a dead lady living.
I was stupid enough to take pills and then say bye kind of thing to my best friend and she read between the lines. I don’t know how but I have been sectioned 2. However there’s a issue with beds. The bed situation is that they want to send me to a trust where I do not work. They had found a bed a place where I’ve dont bank shifts before and it totally confused staff and patients about my role. I didn’t like it.
This amhp has sort of said that it will not be the trust but can’t gaurantee it.
I just could do with support. I hate not knowing what’s happening. I just feel low. I don’t need to be sectioned but they didn’t ask if I wanted to be informal or not. Just you’re detained under s2 of mha.
I feel so low and suicidal and I don’t think I’m that safe but I would of preferred a million and one times to go home. I don’t want this. I want to go home. I’m just waiting in a random 136 suits not knowing what to do :/. I’m so not happy.
I just don’t know how to cope with all of this. It’s been a very long day. The process of calling 999 was my therapist who told my friend but I don’t know exactly what happened but police and ambulance were at my house. They managed to get me out and then used their powers of S136 on me.
I just feel so confuse and can do with lots of support.
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Ballerina123 - My lovely superstar
Call me R -
The best thing about the future is that it comes one day at a time - Abraham Lincoln
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19-04-2018, 05:21 PM
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#2
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Join Date: Sep 2017
Location: London-ish
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Hi, don't really know what to say other than I hope that some progress has been made today in deciding what's happening.
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21-04-2018, 08:35 PM
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The Shadow of the Day
Join Date: Oct 2004
Location: Scotland
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I hope you're getting the support that is right for you. Sending good wishes. Take care.
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I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
You didn't come this far just to come this far.
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21-04-2018, 11:17 PM
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Petulant
Join Date: Jun 2007
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Did they find you a bed?
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*Proud Plumeria Sister*
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23-04-2018, 05:22 PM
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Feel free to be yourself
Join Date: Sep 2008
Location: United Kingdom of backwards thinking?
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Thank you so much for replying. I am reading your replies but my head is so slow in functioning. I am having difficulties getting my words out and understanding what to do.
I did ey places on a S2 and they sent me out of area. Thankfully when I got seen the next day I convinced the dr I was fine and it was very heavy handed that I was placed on s2 and the exploration of HTT never happened. My partner turned up and also said he would exercise his right as a MR to discharge me.
I’ve been seeing my local HTT. I just feel like I’ve hit rock bottom. I feel very low and sad and cry all the time. My head is full of air and not much goes through it. I can’t think. I feel like that I can get better but it feels like it’s such a far way away to get to the place I don’t think it will happen at all.
I just want to cry. I have no idea how I’m meant to be getting married on Friday. I can’t even say much let alone get married. I just can’t do this.
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Ballerina123 - My lovely superstar
Call me R -
The best thing about the future is that it comes one day at a time - Abraham Lincoln
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23-04-2018, 07:45 PM
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The Shadow of the Day
Join Date: Oct 2004
Location: Scotland
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I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. You said you feel like you can get better but it feels like it's so far away, try and hold on to the hope that you can get through this. I'm pretty sure you can. Are HTT helpful at all? That sounds quite stressful knowing that you're getting married on Friday while all of this is going on, is your partner supportive?
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I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
You didn't come this far just to come this far.
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24-04-2018, 03:58 PM
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Feel free to be yourself
Join Date: Sep 2008
Location: United Kingdom of backwards thinking?
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I’m teyinv so hard to hold on to the hope. It just seems like a distant vague place to get to that place of hope.
HTT have been okay I guess. They aren’t doing much. Seeing me whenever. I was seeing them nearly everyday and now other day. So haven’t seen them much.
My whole body is so slow. I am trying to think but I feel as if I can’t even get anything out of my head. I feel blocked. There’s nothing there.
My partner is being amazing. He says we can postpone it but I don’t see the point. And also it will be very hard to do it. I just have no interest or motivation or enjoyment of the thought of the nice day.
I had one shift yesterday and it was the hardest shift. I burst into tears and ran into he seclusion room while sobbed. Later on I broke down in he staff room. I then cried all the way home whilst on the phone to my partner and then cried so much when I was home. This is not me. I don’t cry and I don’t even know why I’m crying.
Is it normal for low mood to get worse as the day progresses? I just feel so slow. My thought are slow and then it feels like I can’t get the words out.
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Ballerina123 - My lovely superstar
Call me R -
The best thing about the future is that it comes one day at a time - Abraham Lincoln
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25-04-2018, 02:41 PM
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The Shadow of the Day
Join Date: Oct 2004
Location: Scotland
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I understand how hard it is to hold on to hope when you're in such a distressing place emotionally. You sound really low. I think that low mood can feel worse as the day goes on for some people. For others they feel worse in the morning so it's an individual thing. Is there anything that can be put in place for you later on in the day when things seem to get worse?
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I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
You didn't come this far just to come this far.
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