Triggering (SI) - I wish I didn't...
...need this place again. But I do.
I'm really sorry I know I haven't been around on this site a lot recently and I only seem to pop up every now and then when I'm struggling, I rarely ever give sound advice to others but I expect them to give it to me, I always feel really bad about this. I read other peoples posts, I do. I just never know what to say without sounding stupid or hypocritical, but I do care and wish that I could say something to help. Sorry.
Sorry about that, if you made it this far; Right now I'm really struggling to be happy, I'm doubting everything, my existence, my friends, my boyfriend, my emotions. It just feels like everything is fake. I'm cutting again after so long because that pain is real and it makes me feel real even for a moment. I don't know what I'm doing, I was doing so well. I want to be happy, but I don't think I know how.
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