Ian, keep fighting and holding on. We're all right behind you, cheering for you. I hope you're as ok as you can be with such news. It's gonna be hard but please just use us all as much as you need. *hugs you*
OMG ian, im so sorry. wishing you all the best and lots of strength to get you through this. you know where we all are if you need us....
lots of love holly xx
this pic is so i can always remember jen who was my l'il sock monkey friend who has left ryl and i miss her!!!
Oh gosh, I hope you're holding up okay. That's horrible news. Wishing you all the strength in the world to fight this, and remember we're all here for you.
*Hugs lots and lots*
Ian I know how incredibly hard this must be for you but we are all here for you. You have been an amazing friend and I am grateful to have you in my life. You are in my thoughts and know that I am here if you ever need me. All the best
Kat xxx
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
*Hugs* Keep strong Ian, you'll get through this =) Lots of love xxx
Sarah: Give me the child.
Jareth: Sarah beware. I have been generous up till now. I can be cruel.
Sarah: Generous? What have you done that's generous?
Jareth: Everything! Everything you have wanted I have done. You asked the child be taken, I took him. You cowered before me, I was frightening. I have reordered time. I have turned the world upside down, and I have done it all for you! I am exhausted from living up to your expectations of me. Isn't that generous?
You can beat this though, you have everyone from here's support and I'm sure many more people's.
You have been a great support to me and I will never forget that so if you ever need to chat feel free to PM me.
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See I cannot feel this, not matter how you try and in the real world, there's no goodbyes.
Heya everyone. Firstly id like to thank you Aimee for doing this thread for me. It means alot to me it really does. Thank you so much, your so good to me. You have helped me alot even when your struggling. I'd also like to thank everyone else to who has left hugs and replied on here. It was really nice to read through all the lovely messages. Now on to the serious stuff. I had the a scan last Thursday and it was when i got home later in the afternoon that the doctor rang to say that the results were abnormal. I then had another appointment on Wednesday which is when i was told that i had cancer.
I was really shocked although i did think something was wrong when they said the results were abnormal. I had the operation yesterday, they wanted to do it as quick as possible. It went well, the doctor was really pleased. I was going to stay in over night but they decided to let me go home. My blood test result came back ok but i have got to wait for an appointment for a ct scan to arrive in the post. If the ct scan is ok then i wont need chemotherapy, radiotherapy or anything else. I have been very low and upset and iv had times where i want to give up. I'm still feeling low, iv been in alot of pain and i didnt get any sleep last night it was awful it really was, im going to prop myself up this time because i cant sleep straight on my bed if you understand what i mean. I'm quite fragile which is to be expected, im very slow walking going up the stairs and getting into bed etc etc. Once again thank you everyone and il keep you updated.
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This will probably sound ridiculous but there was one day when i was in town and i was so upset i was in floods of tears i kept thinking of bad things and i kept thinking to myself that its to much and that i cant do it. I'm only 20 it just feels like its one thing after another. Its like when im doing well something bad has to happen to spoil it and then im back to being suicidal and feeling low which i have been feeling anyway. Sorry im mumbling on this has just been so difficult. I'm worried about the ct scan i hope it comes back ok. Just get fed up with things keep going wrong. Its bad enough if you have depression which i do, never mind being told you have cancer I should be happy the operation has been completed but oh i dont know.
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The fact that youre still supporting and helping people in your time of need is testiment to the type of person you are,caring and kind and willing to help. Supporting people means a lot to you but I want to say something to you....
Let us help you now, let us support you and be there for you. You've just had a major trauma in your life and its to be expected that youre scared and worried about everything. Its good that the doctors are positive, try and hold onto that fact,but no one is expecting you to be happy and positive at the moment. If I was in your position I'd be crying in town too, I'd be hiding under my duvet feeling sorry for myself in all honesty!
Youre not whinging and even if you are you have every right to,if you cant have a moan at a time like this when can you? Its ok to be upset and scared....dont be afraid to be vunerable.
I dont know if you have anyone in your real life that you can talk to, but we will be here for you always, if youre scared vent to us and we will reassure you, if youre in pain tell us and we will try to make you feel better, if youre falling let us help support you. Thats the whole point of this site, to support people in their time of need.
Its especially hard when youre mentally ill/depressed as well, its hard enough to cope and when things like this happen its easy to let it take over, but you will get through this and even when you think you cant you will find the strength somewhere. You are strong and if you cant find that strength, we will help you find it. Dont think that anyone is thinking youre moaning about nothing, you have every right to.
You take everything in your stride ian and you cope amazingly well but its not weakness if you have some times where you cant see a light at the end of the tunnel. You will come out of this a stronger individual.
Remember that we are here for you, 24 hours a day 7 days a week, whatever you need to talk about there will be someone here to help. Let us support you the way you support everyone else.
Take time to heal and let yourself feel your emotions, dont bottle them up. Were here for you.
xxxx
There are times to stay put, and what you want will come to you.
But there are times to go out into the world and find such a thing for yourself.
I aint no abacus but you can count on me.
Ian you are one the most beloved&amazing people around. You are a godamn warrior. I love you - Keep fighting i'm here for you if you ever need to talk, PM anytime you need. Take care of yourself
&& Ian I know that must be terrifying for you, but every day drs make a progress in fighting cancer, My step mum & anut were diagnosed with cancer and they have fully recovered from it. :D
Roby xo
A little angel fell into my arms at the 7th of december 2010
I've just seen this.
I'm so sorry. I really hope that you make a good recovery.
I know of several people who've made an excellent recovery after a cancer diagnosis, going completely into remission. There is hope. There is always hope.
This thread made me all emotional because it's so clear how many people you have helped here, Ian, how many lives you have touched.
And also because of what you're going through now, obviously, as the reality of this hits you. It's terrible that you have had to go through this but I am really glad it was caught early and wish you all the very very best for the ct scan results.
Go really, really gentle on yourself right now. Soothe yourself with compassionate acts and things you enjoy. If you need to cry, it's okay, it's completely understandable. You don't deserve any of this in your life but it is going to make you a stronger person ultimately at the end. I've seen you overcome your depression and self harm before, and I've seen you take MANY positive steps, nay, giant leaps, in the right direction... so don't give up on yourself, cause we will not give up on you.