life seems so point i dont even think god cares any more i think god rather have me dead then alive and that i should not have even been born
I know what that feels like, each minute feels pointless and like there's no larger purpose. When I feel like I'm not sure why God is doing what he's doing, or that he's not there and my life doesn't make sense, it helps me to think of times in my life that I didn't understand what God was up to. When I look back on those times I can see God's love at work in me and my circumstances through the darkness even when there was no light in those moments. Faith isn't just in God, it's in his goodness and love and grace. Reflecting on the times he's been there for you in the past can help you trust and have faith that he's there right now working out something behind the scenes.
It's easy to understand but much harder to believe and hold onto hope, but he's right there with you.
Hi everyone, just wanted to join in on the thread… I'm a Christian, have been since I was 9. Started self harming when I was 7-8 amongst other problems, but my faith has never left. I believe God loves me, even if I don't.
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I am raw meat in a slaughter house, packaged according to what you are hungry for . . .
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I burnt quite badly and ended up in A&E. They treated me very well though. My poor husband is probably struggling because of this. I just wish I could stop hurting.
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I am raw meat in a slaughter house, packaged according to what you are hungry for . . .
I always tell him when I've s/h, but he wants me to stop and finds it had to accept that I'm not ready… I go through good periods of time where I don't s/h at all (good) but then I go and "ruin it" by doing it (bad)… I feel a lot of guilt.
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I am raw meat in a slaughter house, packaged according to what you are hungry for . . .
[ame="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S1Y8Naj3RFk"]Seek ye first the kingdom of God - YouTube[/ame]
"Resolve to be tender with the young, compassionate with the aged,
sympathetic with the striving, and tolerant with the weak and wrong because sometime in your life you will have been all of these."
Things are hard right now ...i feel like i need to cut am trying to keep myself busy listening to christian rock its helpful
Voices are really loud today i was at a hearing voices group and then a mental health drop in it was crowed and the voices was so loud
Only just woke up an hour ago and am feeling like i need to cut my OCD is bad am having blasphemous thoughts i don't want them in my head and i feel like am evil for sinning in this way
i feel really bad
am upset at myself
Afew years ago i got a tattoo of a pentagram on my arm witch i now regret
i feel like i need to cut over it normally when i cut its not anywhere near to my tattoos
but am feeling a lot of self hate right now and really want to hurt myself
Stay safe. Just focus on God's love - He is there for you and shall keep you safe eternally. Let your heart rest in His infinitely loving heart and the pain shall disappear.
"Resolve to be tender with the young, compassionate with the aged,
sympathetic with the striving, and tolerant with the weak and wrong because sometime in your life you will have been all of these."
Ephesians 6:10-11The Armour of God
10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power.
11 Put on thefull armour of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes.
I always tell him when I've s/h, but he wants me to stop and finds it had to accept that I'm not ready… I go through good periods of time where I don't s/h at all (good) but then I go and "ruin it" by doing it (bad)… I feel a lot of guilt.
The feeling of "ruining it" is a hard one to battle, for that very reason -- guilt. It usually goes from "I messed up" to "I'm not __ days free" to "I feel terrible" and then the enemy pounces and piles on and tries to make us feel awful. God loves you and accepts you just as much now as before. Every step is a step forward
