It's horrible feeling that way but practically speaking suicide attempts don't always work and you can end up with terrible injuries, permanently. Plus you deserve to feel better than this. Don't give up on yourself. Be kind to yourself every day.
but theres still a chance though it might work all i have to do is find a way to kill me something that works....... it has to.... i cant stand any more of this shit!!!!
its hard to be kind to myself.... when everyone including me hates me so munch....
no one needs me even my DNA family doesnt need me!!! my counsons all hate me for me being in a gang.... but no one even trys or wants to understand the qusetion of WHY in the first place they all hate and judge me!!!!!!!!!
I think I have a plan that would actually work!!!!! But I have to wait until my friend gives me his valentine gift so I don’t let him down by dying before he gets a chance to give it to me......
I'm sorry you feel this way but honestly you'll let him down by dying whether he gives you the gift or not (and just to clarify that's not meant to sound like encouragement). Maybe you can speak to him, put off your plan and hang on longer?
i dont think i can hang on any longer...... but ive tried my plan today and the person that i needed to make angry and full of hate didnt kill me so i failed my plan i thought that he had the hate, anger, power and the will to kill me but i guess he didnt so im still living....... sadly.......
i went home this Valentine day weekend and asked google home "whats the process of completing a will?" and it gave me the steps to do it (i didnt do it when my mom was around) and i asked my mom what cemetery did my grandparents go to and she couldnt remember the name of it but she did remember the name of the street it was on so.... yeah i have been planing my funeral and i asked my friend if he could come to itand he said yes and i told him that hopefully my furneal would be way better then my life which i really hope it is and not high jacked by my stupid selfish cousins.........