heads a mess (Triggering)

[prae_for_me]

I dont no how to start, or even where to post, am i metal? a self harmer? idk

my boyfriend left me 2 weeks ago, we been lovers since 8 years, I was a model before I get ill, I travel the world, had friends, money now it is gone

I got crohns disease just over a year ago and because of it ended up with a bag on my stomach a colostomy and my man said he could not be with it or touch me so he went with my friend instead, he said it was freaky and smelled.

so now i dont work much my friends stopped coming and i started drinking and cutting words into my legs, i also write all over myself in marker pens runes mostly, covered my face in them recently got drunk and went out ???

I think I need to know if I am mad or not or broken down and how to fix myself

[Tak]

hi pear_for_me

I hope you are feeling okay, dont worry about the past look at the future.
My grandmother has a colostomy bag, i have helped her empty it many times, nothing to be ashamed of, its all natural.

You should start by maybe write postive messages with the markers on yourself, and stop drinking (no good for the bag)

pm me if u wanna talk