Contains sexual abuse - Just can't take it any more

[dbus-daemon]

Less than 24 hours to go :( I had a horrible nightmare last night. I can't remember much about it other than how disturbing it was. I'm terrified about tomorrow. The whisky has helped slightly but not much.

I'm not going alone, two of my mates are going with me. That mate that reported it to the police for me (P) is going with me as well as a mate that witnessed a few of the attacks. That's really what's the worst. Someone saw my ex attacking me. It's humiliating that he saw how weak I was.

[dbus-daemon]

I'm back from having done my statement. It was hard going and to be honest I feel even worse now. I'm so scared of my ex.

[dbus-daemon]

It's weird. I feel much better now. I feel far less scared of my ex and I am getting a surprising amount of support from my family too. I've suddenly realised that my ex is a pathetic, cowardly worm with a yellow streak down his back. He's beneath contempt. His power over me is fading away slowly.

[tiptoes]

I'm glad your friends were able to go with you and that you are getting support from your family.

It's been a few days, how are you doing?

It's good that your ex's power is fading away don't feel bad if moments of doubt kick in. Hold on to these feelings now, write them somewhere you can look at if you are reminded of his power. (just based on friend's experience of leaving abusive partners, the path to realisation isn't always linear sometimes the power can sneak back in a little bit.)

[dbus-daemon]

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Originally Posted by tiptoes

I'm glad your friends were able to go with you and that you are getting support from your family.

It's been a few days, how are you doing?

It's good that your ex's power is fading away don't feel bad if moments of doubt kick in. Hold on to these feelings now, write them somewhere you can look at if you are reminded of his power. (just based on friend's experience of leaving abusive partners, the path to realisation isn't always linear sometimes the power can sneak back in a little bit.)

I'm doing a lot better now. The fear has mostly gone but I will keep an eye out for moments of doubt. Having my mates stand by me has really helped too.

ETA: The more he tries to intimidate me the more power he loses. It's weird. The harder he tries to regain his power, the further he loses his already tenuous grip on me. He's tried to intimidate me twice today but it's not working.

[dbus-daemon]

My nightmares have totally decreased in frequency, duration and intensity now. I'm a lot more hopeful that this time he'll get punished for what he's done.

[tiptoes]

It sounds like you are coping really well, I hope things continue to improve for you.

You should be so proud of yourself breaking free!

I'm sorry he is still trying to intimidate you, are you keeping a record of all your contact with him? It might come in helpful when building a case against him.

[dbus-daemon]

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Originally Posted by tiptoes

It sounds like you are coping really well, I hope things continue to improve for you.

You should be so proud of yourself breaking free!

I'm sorry he is still trying to intimidate you, are you keeping a record of all your contact with him? It might come in helpful when building a case against him.

Yeah I've got a spreadsheet of his antics and a few people have witnessed him trying to intimidate me.

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Hey,

How are you feeling now?

Well done for keeping track of any contact he's tried to have. It really does help when things are going further. I did it with my ex and it was a lot of evidence they took on board.

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