Life feels empty, I feel lost
Just over a year ago I had two housemates I loved, a job, I was studying, volunteering and in a relationship.
I became mentally unwell again after many years, starting about a year ago, probably longer.
Now I can’t work, exited study, and left my partner (something I’d known I had to do for a long time), and I don’t feel home at home. My favourite housemate left and I’m adjusting to new people but it’s just not the same. I feel okay when I’m around my family like my sister and her people, or my mum and her people, but on my own I feel lost and alone. But I can’t spend all my time with them!
Although my mental health has improved a fair bit my life is still empty. I’m trying to enjoy all I have in this moment, but it’s really hard. I wonder if I’ll ever find a partner to share my life with, and waiting on government benefits assessment means I can’t work yet. Even when I can, I don’t know if I like my job anymore really. I don’t know if I have the confidence to do something that really means something to me. I’m in my early 30s and I just feel like my life is in pieces. I’m in a place where we are in lockdown again, after several. Feels like it might never end.
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