feeling glad :) still no groups to turn up, feeling a lot better... f u social group, f u art cafe, f u adult community centres, I can see why they are called depressing social groups.
I am a lot happier since I left you and handed in that group resignation with a smile on my face.
Now, that I can feel enjoyment, I don't mind about staying indoors as I have reason to stay in, I can do more pleasurable things, youtube, gaming, netflix and things that I take more pride in.
I left the signing on for healthier people, people who spend all day searching for jobs, who can take any job they like when they like...
- i have still got depression, but ain't bout those things.
Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60's. Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted.
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. I tried groups, didn't work out just made my depression a lot worse.
Frustrated with life and my mother she can't see how good she has it being able to see my sisters when I can't I told her I'd give my right arm to see them but I can't do it she doesn't understand. I did try and explain dnt think she fully gets it tho. I am so angry and everyone feels to far away including loved ones I feel like faeces I feel like I'm nothing but a let down I feel sad and gutted and I want to cry
