Triggering (SI) - I really messed up
The past few days Ive felt terrible so many things happening to others around me, nothing to me, I feel like I have no one to relate to, no friends, no family, like I'm all alone in this universe and I can't take it anymore, meds don't help anymore, I can't feel both physically and emotionally things that I should, Ive SH'ed over 20 times in the past week, I just can't put up with it things never go right for me, they all hate me, I hate myself, we **** am I still here? I feel I have nothing here to live for, so why the **** do I still try, at first I thought : oh it's just a low, I feel great in a few days, but I'm not coming off of it it's too ****ing hard to stop, I'm tired, I'm in pain physical and emotional, Ive given up on recovery, I'm sorry.
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