Monday: i went to the drs about some physical issues
tuesday: i was highly triggered by an argument but chose to sit with my sisters to eat my snack instead of restrict
“Toughness is in the soul and spirit, not in muscles.”
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^go kel <3
uhm i had a normal amount today.. even though my dad kept torturing me about weight and stuff
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
I ate lunch out today !! I was with the day care team but i get really nervous eating out as i always feel like people are staring at me but i actually felt OK and i had a normal lunch - a panini thing :)
Last edited by IntrovertedKindaSoul : 09-08-2008 at 07:11 PM.
' With hindsight I was more than blind, lost without a clue
Thought I was getting carat gold and what I got was you
[center]" I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside."
I am cooking dinner for myself at the moment and it smells gorgeous.
I'm very excited, as if I've been subsisting off a very small amount of food for so long, and even then it didn't involve cooking - mostly just picking up pieces of fruit. I'm going to try and have one full meal a day from now on. My counsellor has agreed that it's a realistic goal.
Sunday: i wore SHORTS...i bared my (newly filled out) THIGHS and legs in public!!
*explains*
i have always before ED had chuncky thighs, genetically i am just programmed to be like that...so even though i'm still underweight my thighs are more 'normal' sized and actually there bigger than my none underweight close friends...that isnt a disordered perception she and OH agree...and you know what i'm OK with that because thats who i am. I cant change that by starving..........:p
So i dont love it but i can now accept it and just get on with things
Ditto!!
erm...on Thursday...I bought a skirt that was shorter than I normally buy (usually they are floor length....this one is just above my knee)
