Personal Piece- Contains upsetting material - My Writings

[Arc Angel]

Silent Cry
The silent guy stands alone
He stands in the corner solid as stone
The silent guy never wavers as he stands
He yet weeps forever tear stains on his hands
The silent guy now sways going down
He now lays face down on the ground
The silent guys heart is shattered not whole
He now stands in the corner forever alone
The silent guy has no one to lean on
He fades away each day another piece of his soul gone
The silent guy now has a knife
He now cuts at night unable to handle the strife
The silent guy bleeds, blood stains on his knee
He now falls the blood paying his unholy deeds
The silent guy finally speaks
The silent guy is me

(Whos the silent guy?)
(How long will he last?)

[Arc Angel]

Why do people fear death
Why do we fear the cold grip
As if stricken we run
Dieing is never any fun

How do we know
This is just what we are told
Is deaths grip really cold
Should we fear skulls and crossbones?

Soon shall be Halloween
We dress up to hear people scream
Why do people fear
We never know when our time is here

I do not believe in Halloween
I believe in the wiccian dreams
Halloween is just a beginning
The first of the year not an undoing

[Arc Angel]

I am deemed unworthy
This all must be a dream
The only way to describe what I see
Is by saying a heavenly sweet uncertainty

Her eyes glow and yet shine at the same time
They see into my inner mind
The lightest amber of all
Lit to fight the darkness in which I fall

Then there is her silk smooth hair
Sometimes I think its just no fair
Who could look as lovely as this
Who else could… I miss like this

I cannot forget her lips
If only I could have a single kiss
My heart would stop and my soul die
Just because she is so kind

(……)
(……)

[Arc Angel]

I stay and wait for my someday
The day when I may drop the pain
When I may be happy for a change
The day when I am fully awake
When I want to stay in a single place
My someday awaits somewhere past a lake
When I may for once stop writing pain
The day when it receeds becomes tame
I just hope I can wait
Hopefully one day I will experience my someday
And for a change get to live life my way
The fog will clear when its near
So will the pain that’s not so dear
I just hope my somedays near
But for now All I do is cry in fear
Running down my face are indeed my tears

(Are you Waiting to?)
(Is is worth the things were put through?)

[LittleCloud]

You write beautifully, but your poems are sad. I hope you're ok. I love the image of the silent guy cutting at the night

[Arc Angel]

A chilling wind is in the air
I feel a shiver here and there
My blood runs cold and lets loose my soul
Oh but do I let go
Only the last moments know

My life now flashes before my eyes
And I see an ever so bright light
As I bleed and cling to life
I wish to walk towards the light
These are the last moments I’m alive

I feel warmth as I die
A few moments left to my life
Very little is left inside
At least now I no longer must fight

My eyes now close
I let go of my soul
All lights go out in the night
I now stop and lose the fight
I now walk towards the light

(How long is left?)
(Do I want to know?)

[Arc Angel]

There is something wrong out of wack
I know something I now lack
My family is forever gone
It is something I can never have back
There is something wrong
This something I had is now gone
My life altered yet goes on
The ones I called brothers
And the one I called mother
Are now just strangers
There is no one I now trust
No one I hold as first
Just another face set of eyes
My life is now soly mine
My family gone away
There and yet gone
No longer the ones I trust
Just the ones left as dust
Nothing wrong nothing gone
Just my life as it goes on

(Bye mother)
(Bye brother)
(Bye sister)

[Arc Angel]

Blood rushes through my veins
Faster, faster it goes on the same
Thus a cut lets it spew
Blood sprouting a new
From my skin it dyes things red
It drips all over even from my head

From the pain in my soul
Tears swell up and feel cold like coal
Then they fall, bluring things I think I saw
Tears flow down, clean the ground
Wash away some of my pain yet still a frown
And the next night, I cry the same as the last
The pain I feel it is so real
It makes me want to… make things still

My blood and tears show my fears
The pain and sorrow I feel at night
The way I feel all the time
Thus blood pours and tears fall
All just to make the pain inside a little nice if at all
Just so I don’t have to face the ever so bright light

(Thus to prove)
(I write to you)
(Write to me to)

[Arc Angel]

1000 ways to be amazed
Constantly my eyes are glazed
My mind is constantly in a haze
They saw, something so hot
It just can’t process it all
My mind is on stop
All it does is flop
Overheated from the strain
How can someone make me so amazed
Make me float on air and not care
Then they leave the haze clears
I realize all my fears
So I now go to see
What is waiting for me
Tomorrow I can once again see
Someone that never ceases to amaze me
My heart now pounds as I wait around
Wait for my frown to turn upside down
Waiting to see the one amazing sexy beauty

(So many thoughts)
(Hears racing)

[Arc Angel]

Twisted times in the darkest night
Pierced only by the sweetest sunshine’s delight
Now walking by always to high
The sunshine in the blackest of nights
Twisting and twirling, just amazingly appealing
Now light has reached my inner eye
Down into the depths of my twisted mind
Restoring life to the blind inner mind
With such beauty and grace make no mistake
She is the twisted sunshine’s delight
The darkness can’t even put up a fight
In the darkest night, pitch black light
No hope for shadows to survive
In the presence of twisted sunshine’s delight
Restoring the sacred light
Returning my mind to life
The ever to high in the night sky
Twisted sunshine delight out of sight
Maybe one day I can feel direct rays
Oh there is nothing like her heavenly gaze
Twisted night now falls to the sweetest sunshines light
It installs in me the most amazing delights

(Who is the one)
(Cast away shadows)
(Don’t leave any behind)

[Arc Angel]

In the distance there is a scream
A scream of sorrow and fallen dreams
A scream so loud it stops all sound
A scream heard by all around

High pitched and filled with pain
It’s the undying scream of heartbreak
The unrelenting test of resolve
The one moment when you lost it all

In time the sounds shall stop
But the pain is never taken from the heart
The screams mark a point in time
A time of darkness in your life

The screams stop air stills
You shall never forget the way you feel
The crowd leaves and moves on
Forever you shall know the person who is gone

(Do you like someone?)
(Have you had your heart broken?)

[Arc Angel]

Each time I breathe
Each time I sneeze
I feel a skipped beat
I feel a false heatbeat
My eyes go fuzzy
And my head grows tired
My heart has forsaken me
With a false heartbeat
Each one makes me weezy
And yet unable to sleep
My very body hates me
Oh why must this be
Why give and take a beat
Why must it be a false heartbeat

(Why?)
(Can anyone tell me?)

Arc Angel

[Arc Angel]

The cloudy sky now rises
It gives birth to tiney lights
A magnificent sight
Small crystals of ice

Little rays of sunshine
Little specs of hope
This cloudy sky thus gives rise
To the most magnificent sight

Unique Shaped drops
Frozen in unbreakable locks
This cloudy sky gave rise
To a frozen sky of ice

A shower of magnificent sight
Of hope and light
With sunshine in every bit of ice
Thus gave rise to a frozen sky

(Frozen…)
(It’s Amazing)

Arc Angel

[Arc Angel]

There is a voice inside me waiting to get free
It’s there waiting for me
Yet when I try to reach
Silence is all that addresses me
My voice wants out
Yet it cannot be freed
My fear keeps it silently inside me
I really need to face my fear
I need to let my voice be free
Without it I am not truly me

(Let my voice free)
(Then I can be me)

[Arc Angel]

Time washes away the pain
Turning you to dust
Time is your ally and your friend
Healing wounds and strengthening bonds for us
Time is the ultimate enemy
Unable to stop the flow or halt your destruction
Time one day breaks though any defense at all
With the passing of time people are forgiven
The passing of time is the cure to all
Time stomps out all existence
Nothing we can do, no way we can fight
Time is your friend and your enemy
You decide how you shall live your life

(Passing of time kills and renews)
(Can you survive the test of time?)

[Arc Angel]

I stand alone in this empty world of ours
Alone standing here forever
My friends my girl they can’t comfort me
I stand alone in this world of empty dreams
What have I done to stand alone for an eternity
Is anyone truly with another forever
No comfort, no joy I stand alone
Alone in this world there’s nothing to see
It’s all an illusion to all but me
I see through the lies of this world
I stand alone forever an eternity

(Do you stand alone?)
(Are you sure it’s all real?)

[Arc Angel]

Hard to forget the time we spent as one
I can’t forget how long I thought you were the one
You’re in my head I can’t move on
Reality tells me lies I never forget the color of your eyes
How can you do this to me you made me realize
You’re the one that I want deep inside
All the time I spent alone you’re the one I want the most
Don’t leave stay with me tonight
I might die without you here with me for the fight
It’s hard to forget the pain I suffered then
Hard to forget the way my heart leapt again and again
My body mind and soul are one
They want you, you are the one
It’s hard to fight memories of our time
Hard to forget how you made me feel at night
Stay with me one final time
Stay with me for just tonight
I may die without you here, I will lose the fight

(Do you remember?)
(Or)
(Am I the only one?)

[Arc Angel]

Bang! Bang! Another man dies in the rain
Soldiers fight and many die in vein
Yet all’s destroyed and laid to waste
Why go to war, under what case

People die but why
What’s it for why go to war
Waste more men and what for
A smaller city and ever shrinking world

Another gun is made
More gasoline gone to waste
All our possessions given away
This is the price we pay

Soldiers live fight and die
They pay the world’s ultimate price
But really why do they fight
What drives them to head into the light

War is made because people want their way
They are unable to solve a problem in a sensible way
People cannot control so they pay a toll
People kill in order to take a mole hole

Ruthless men are never in the fight
They sit and wait
Why all soldiers fight and die
But really if they win, answer the why

More men fight and more men die
There is always a war
Always another tyrant that wants more
Yet why do the soldiers pay the ultimate price
Can anyone answer the why

(Why?)
(Would you fight?)

[Arc Angel]

Lift it high to the sky
Fly thy flag of thy tribe
Let them know fear
Don’t let them near
Fly thy flag show thy strength
No one can hope to beat

Fly thy flag high
All shall know our might
Let’s shift the tides and join the fight
Let’s win the war and move on

Fly thy flag of thy tribe
Let’s make all the others cry
This world is ours, show thy might
Fly thy flag up high
Thy flag of thy tribe

(Do you honor thy tribe?)
(Are you helping fight?)

[Arc Angel]

I stand in one place passing away
Thus I stay waiting for the chains to break
Weak as grass they just barely hide the path
Three chains and ones given way
Two remain but ones ready to break
One left to tether me
One crack and I will be free
I will pass away my final day
Here I lay wasting for two chains to break
One chain is rusted though
And the other is held by glue
How long till they break, what will I do

(Pass Away?)
(What’s it like?)