Over 10 months free from laxative abuse.(realized this recently!)
I seldomly think of calories now.
I eat what i want and when i want.I feel great physically & okay mentally&emotionally.
My self-esteem is getting better each day.
My self-confidence is much much better.
I have tiny slip ups (calorie counting & bit restricting) but they don't count :P
And i've reached this stage of recovery where i don't miss my bad days.I recognized how ill i was-And just looking at how small my clothes were aches me!
I don't love bones--Na'aaah,curves are healthy&beautiful and i love myself for that.I hate it when i lose weight and my thighs gap.Iwish i can inject some fat from my arms down my thighs that would be better lol.
I'm getting married in less than 100 days (Oh-My...!)
And i am planning to gain more weight or maintain,tho my weight is fine but more curves would be lovely-ier with the wedding gown!
I love that my health is really good now,I rarely have headaches,or dizzy spells,& oh just the freedom is amazing..!
You really can't appreciate what you got till it's gone.I would never waste this away.I want to keep this up.
((I would have never reached this stage without all the beautiful people on here.Really,...the lovely PMs & the caring replies have pushed me though all of this.))
I wish if i could help you guys the way you helped me.
I'm beating this...
Hope soon i'd add the 'ed' to 'recover'!
Roby =) x
A little angel fell into my arms at the 7th of december 2010
Roby,, Darling, I don't know how to express how damn proud I am of you right now. I'm like this I love you so much & hearing this has brightened up my day, a lot. You keep fighting gorgeous, you are worth it <3
Wow! What an inspiration. Be sure to take most of the credit yourself cause recovery isn't easy stuff and at the end of the day, you can have all the support in the world but it is only YOU choosing not to purge etc.. (Not saying this board and the people on it aren't all good stuff though hehe)
You are doing just fantastic and eee my golly gosh, wedding soon! You are gonna be the most beautiful bride. :)
Thanks for the update and keep up the good work.
Love. x
The Mole was bewitched, entranced, fascinated. By the side of the river he trotted as one trots, when very small, by the side of a man who holds one spell-bound by exciting stories; and when tired at last, he sat on the bank, while the river still chattered on to him, a babbling procession of the best stories in the world, sent from the heart of the earth to be told at last to the insatiable sea.
Wind in the Willows.
How amazing, thank you for posting this such fantastic reasons for recovery & you're an inspiration for that! I love your mindset, I love that you're healthy, and congratulations <3 xxxxxxxxx
I love you so much & hearing this has brightened up my day, a lot. You keep fighting gorgeous, you are worth it <3
