it ok, i better now :)
i understand
lottie - 9 (karen)
lara - 13 (peter)
me - 19
charlie.. I dont know how old she was, she didnt stick around long enough, but who is willing to bet she was 16 (luke)?
it was lottie that cut KAREN into my arm
it was lottie that wrote all over me, bad words and bad names
it was lottie
and lottie isnt bad
she isnt a scary force
she's just a part of me
and she's gone batshit insane
but i can deal with that
cos she's ME
there isnt any bad person inside me looking out
it's just ME
upset and scared and hating herself
she's hating herself for what others did to her
and now, I can work through the luke problems
lara can work through the peter problems
and we can take care of lottie when she gets angry about the karen problems
because it's only lottie
there's no evil
she's my little freckly lottie-person
i'm so relieved
patrick was the one who told me
he said 'how old is lottie?'
and i said, '10'
and he said 'and her birthday was in february?'
and i said 'yes'
and then i said 'oh my god'
and thats how patrick saved me, ladies and gentlemen
