Anyone else or is it just me * mentions death

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Would it help to post here about what's making you anxious? If this is a good way to communicate then please keep posting.

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Thanks xx it's stupid stuff mostly. Embarrassingly I'm sweating the small stuff. I got it in my head my taxi driver was cross at me for cancelling a taxi from him then I say hi to him n he's frowning so then I'm convinced he's angry at me he isn't tho. And also it's my very high anxiety state and also I was watching a video online and there was a lot of talk about death which made me think of sumone I loved n lost twenty years ago who I still get upset over

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Everything is making me anxious

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I know that anxious feelings can make everything seem scary and further feed your anxiety. Do you have techniques to help you relax?

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Just Netflix walking and my prn meds

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Those sound like good techniques if they work for you. Do you have really anxious periods often?

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Yeah I do hav really anxious periods alot

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Have you ever worked through your anxiety in therapy?

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Amongst other things yes

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Money arghhhhh money have only got mobile and telly for tech stuff really need a ps3 coz it does everything gaming dvds cds bluray it plays the lot but it's £70 and I also need a new laptop which I'm gonna have to pay for as my old one broke and I can't really wait much longer for my grandad to fix up his old one so I can hav it. I have nothing to play my cds n dvds on and my mp3 needs new music on I've ordered the cds but I can't get them onto my mp3 without a laptop. My bed is breaking the telly broke and I had to borrow money for new one and I feel so shallow moaning away about such things some people dnt even have enuff food or a roof over their head also need a new matress I tried loads out in IKEA but only found the most expensive one comfortable and perfect but it's £450 for a single I have never been more glad I don't have a double lol

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Money can be such an issue. Have you looked at second hand stuff? Or might there be some support you can get with buying things? I know that once social work gave me a hoover.

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This is second hand prices for the ps3 eeek as for the bed n matress it will have to wait until after new years coz me bein me I have my heart set on that one now. There used to b a thing called a community care grant that helped people to get started or replace stuff or in sum cases go towards travel costs to visit family in hospital but sadly it got axed in the benifits cuts will have to ask around see if there's any funds available that can help. Thankyou for replying

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Laptop sorted and so is my music till the rest of the cds arrive

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Matress arrives Sunday hopefully. Have a new cpn she left me a voicemail saying she wants to see me this week but voicemail cut off before she cud say when all I know is it's sum time this week so that's gonna b fun seeing as I'm still in mute she knows I'm mute tho so that's ok

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That sounds like it might be a difficult first meeting, I hope she is understanding and you can find a way to communicate that suits you both. Is she coming to your place?

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Yes she's coming to mine possibly as soon as tomorrow but I will find out tomorrow wen she's meeting me. She's sed on her voicemail that she understands I have difficulty communicating at the moment. My plan is to write everything down for her.

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She's not coming over until after her holiday so week after next

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She's not coming over until after her holiday so in two weeks time or under I'll meet my new cpn. Further terrible financial disisions but shud b fixable as grandad now owes me thirty and I am hoping to get some of my birthday money early

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Aaaaand it's time to use this thread again still keep feeling like I'm dying still arguing with myself that I'm not I don't know what to do.

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Has something happened that is making you focus more on this? Have you spoken to your CPN about things?